stories from a bored night crawler

Christmas 2011

2011-12-25T01:25:00.004+08:00

A year ago, a big part of what made my Christmas special was... well, the feast. There were ham, quezo de bola(did i spell it correctly?), lechon, cake, wine, and other food that lasted for days. It was perfect. Hours ago, we had Adobo and Ham. One look at the dining table and I said, "recession?" That got us laughing... why? We had a lot on our fridge and those were all that was served on our table. Funny. A year ago, I would have freaked out at the sight of an almost bare Christmas dining table. Now, it didn't matter. What mattered most was being in the presence of the people I love. It was more than what any kind of feast can ever do for me. I must really be a grown up now.

Being the insomniac that I am, I was the last one to surrender to my dreams. I was able to watch sex in the city 2 on cable 'coz there was nothing good at that time of the night(defensive?). I was amazed at how Carry Bradshaw was able to write at a record pace. Then, I realized that the reason for that was because she stuck to what she knew best... dating. If I were to follow that idea, I should just rename this blog to foodnetwork.com as food is my absolute obsession. Bad idea.

I should be sleeping now. I have a reunion and a date to attend tomorrow and a lot more shenanigans on the coming days. We should really consider starting Christmas parties and reunions in October.

Merry Christmas to all of you. Enjoy the rest of the holiday season. :)

Concert

2011-11-13T20:19:00.002+08:00

And I....eyai... Will Always Love you... hohohohoahhh... I will always love you.... ohhhhhh

Utang na luob. Ilang araw ng nagkoconcert ang kapitbahay. Perwisyo sa trabaho at pahinga. Gusto ko nang ipabarangay kaso sabi dito sa bahay, pakisamahan ko na lang. Grabe, sobrang pakikisama na nga. Sila ata ang walang konsepto nun eh. Haayy.

Anyway, speaking of concert, I watched Vice Ganda's concert here in the province. Everyone was excited, puno ang venue. Siyempre, front row kami... dahil sa complimentary ticket! haha. May kasamang free dinner kaya dumating kami ng mas maaga. Pagdating ng venue, wow. Ang tabang ng pagkain. Hindi na nga masarap, parang takot na takot pa silang maubusan ng supply sa sobrang tipid ng portions. I would have been dismayed pero pinaalala ko sa sarili ko... "complimentary lang ang ticket mo. wag magreklamo!" Ok fine. Diretso na sa concert. Hiyawan pagkalabas ni Vice. Konting patawa lang, benta na. Kaso habang pagitna na ang performance nila sa panglalait portion, it struck me. Napanuod ko na to dati. Same old routine from Showtime promo. As in binalikan ko pa talaga yung video sa youtube to confirm. Ayun na nga, halos walang binago. Haayyy. Hindi ko naman sinasabing hindi sila nakakatawa pero sana nag-effort man lang na mag-isip ng bagong material. Pagkatapos ng concert, hati ang mga tao. nabwisit ang mga taong nag-ipon at nagbayad ng ticket, at sobrang tuwa naman ng mga may complimentary tickets! Sabagay, sino ba naman ang matutuwang magbayad ng P2500 para lang panuorin ang palabas na pwede mo naman palang panuorin sa youtube ng libre?

Through the fire, through whatever come what maaaaaaaaaaayyyyy... For a chance of loving you I'd take it AAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLL the way! Naku... ayaw talagang paawat ng kapitbahay!

The Horror

2011-11-02T01:08:00.002+08:00

Katatapos lang ng ilang oras ng trabaho. Pagod at hindi makatulog. Sa totoo lang, walang kinalaman ang trabaho sa pagod. In fact, I enjoy doing my job(well... most of the time). Nakakapagod kasi instant reunion nanaman kanina at bilang isa sa mga nakatatandang pinsan ay kinailangan kong maging tagabantay ng mga bulilit kong pinsan. Hindi naman ako nagkocomplain. In fact, I enjoy being around little kids which is why I came up with the conclusion that when time comes, I'll enjoy fatherhood. Anyway, as I was saying, I enjoy being around them pero ayaw ko yung pagod after. haha. I know it doesn't make much sense so just humor me, ok? Madaling araw na kaya.

Nung bata ako, parati akong natatakot manuod ng palabas sa telebisyon tuwing sasapit ang mga araw ng patay. Paano ba namang hindi ka matatakot kung ang mga palabas sa tv ay mga Shake,Rattle&Role movies nung time na nakakatakot pa talaga ang franchise na yan (lalo na yung episode ni manilyn reynes na ihahain siyang putahe ng mga aswang para sa fiesta nila). Siyempre tuwing Sabado, hindi magpapatalo ang Magandang Gabi Bayan na kung first time mong panuorin yun ay para ka lang nanunuod ng Verum Est o Nginiig(Solid Kapamilya?). Anyway, fast forward ngayon, hindi naman na ako natatakot sa mga ganyan. In fact, nakahiligan ko nang magmovie marathon kasama ng mga pinsan o friends ng mga horror movies. Ang nakakalungkot lang ay pagbukas mo ng tv, puro patayan ang ibabalita sayo. Parang balik ang paranoia ko nung bata pa ako. Hindi na nga lang mga kwento sa pelikula ang kinatatakutan ko kundi mga kwento sa balita. Mas nakakatakot ang horror ng tunay na buhay.

PS. kumusta naman ang paggamit ko ng "in fact" sa post na to? I need new phrases.

samu't saring kwento 8: Masaya

2011-10-29T13:03:00.000+08:00

Masaya lang ako. Problems are nothing when you have friends who are with you through the good, the bad, and the worst. If I'm being narcissistic, I'd say that they're lucky to have me. If I were to be honest, I think I'm the lucky one.
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Noon, kain kahit saan.
Ngayon, kung saan-saan na lang kumakain.
Noon, nagtitipid para may pang-gimik.
Ngayon, nagtitipid para may panggastos.

Totoo nga pala talaga ang sinasabi nila... matututo kang magtipid kapag ikaw na mismo ang kumakayod para sa sarili mong pera. At totoo rin na mas masarap gastusin ang perang pinagpaguran kesa perang inabot lang sayo. Isa na lang siguro ang mas sasarap pa dun... kapag nasabi mo na sa nanay mo na, "ma, ako naman ang bahala sayo."
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Sino ba ang hindi nakararanas ng problema? Wala. Kaya kung nagtataka ka kung bakit may taong malungkot at may taong masaya, isa lang ang sagot diyan... may mga taong dinadaanan lang ang problema at may mga taong tumatambay sa problema. Are you willing to admit defeat? or... Are you willing to say, "Bring it on!" The choice is yours...

questions...

2011-10-22T16:53:00.002+08:00

I was recently asked to write about pain. Why is there such an obsession about this subject matter? Why are we so intrigued about it that we equate writing about great deal of emotion to a literary goldmine? If that is so... why not happiness? joy? why does it always have to be about pain? Sometimes I wonder, do we read about pain to recover from our own? or for the sheer pleasure of knowing that somebody out there have had it worst than us and that our pains may not be as painful as we thought it were?
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We are we so quick to judge people who are "plastik!" Sometimes, what we get is a reflection of what we give off. If you give authenticity, then you get truth. If you give anything other than that, then what do you expect?

to someone I really miss [REPOST]

2011-06-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

I would have wished a different path for you but I have learned to let go of all the bitterness. I miss you...
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[REPOST]

It has been two years since you left. I didn't know how I would go on. I know I've been selfish, praying over and over again that you'd stay a little while longer but you didn't... which made me a little frustrated since you rarely disapprove of my wishes. I should be angry with you, especially since you left without saying goodbye, but I'm not. I love you way too much that it makes it impossible for me to hate you then. I still don't hate you now... In fact, I think I love you even more if it's possible considering you're so far away. And even though you fail to communicate with me, I would like you to know that I've been trying my best to keep my promises. I still look after your brother, who is starting college this semester. And i know you'd find it amusing that he wants to become an Architect... it's what you have always wanted to become right? I still remember your sketch of your dream house, simple yet elegant. You could have been a great architect you know? And your mom... she doesn't show it but I know she gets lonely. Sometimes, i would catch her tearing up when we talk about you... and she would catch me tearing up as well. It has been two years since you passed away, and nothing has changed... I'm still hoping that you're still with us or that i'm up there with you. I'm sorry that I almost forgot about today. I'm sorry that I don't get to spend time with your brother as much as I would like to. I'm sorry I got so busy... I'm just sorry. I miss you, I miss the brother I had in you. It's funny, I know you're dead but somehow i know you're alive. In my memory, you will always be... I miss you brother.
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Three years and not a single memory is forgotten. I moved on. We all did. Not from you, but with you...

the summer that was- PART1 [Health Concious?]

2011-05-28T02:38:00.000+08:00

I've been doing too many activities this summer that it made it almost impossible for me to write 'em all down. In tagalog... tinamad akong magblog! haha. But seriously, i have too many stories to tell that I have decided to write them in series. And since summer is almost over, I would like to look back on those memories that made this summer experience one of my best yet.

HEALTH CONSCIOUS?
One of the things on my to do list... you know, "the list," is to fit into my 32-in waist pants again. I know it's a long shot considering my March 2011 waistline(which will remain a secret forever by the way) but still... I needed to start somewhere, right? So... as much as I wanted to stay away from the enemy, i had to succumb to it's powers. Behold...The ENEMY:

It was hard! I was so pumped the first day that I got carried away and lifted the heaviest dumb bells, crunched most times, and basically outdid every single person in the gym. The next day, I couldn't even move my arms. The next week, after seven days of physical healing, I went back. This time around, I was less intense and more keen on achieving a realistic goal. With everything in line, I went back as religiously as I can. I lifted weights, I jogged, I played, and I even finished running a marathon. Something amazing happened... I started feeling good. Little did I know that my journey through weight loss would lead me to the path of redemption, acceptance, friendship, and self-discovery(More of all these on next posts).

Anyway, as my "summer weight-loss program" comes to an end, I believe that results are quite favorable. I lost 17 lbs and gained a lifetime's worth of memories.

Haay... It's funny how we know that things do end and still, we wish they wouldn't. And in time, you'll realize that even as time do really pass and some memories fade, that feeling of momentary bliss will remain with you forever.
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PS. If you are wondering why I only lost 17 lbs during this summer considering the activities I've done... well, I would like to believe that I would have lost more if not for the muscles that I have packed on during the process. Promise. yun talaga ang dahilan. Maniwala ka :)

samu't saring kwento 7: kwentong SABUG

2011-05-02T02:48:00.000+08:00

Maga-alas tres na ng madaling araw. gising nanaman ako, tulog nanaman ang lahat. Isa yan sa mga dahilan kung bakit malungkot ang mga oras na ganito para sa mga tulad kong insoniac. walang kausap, walang kakwentuhan. madalas nasa harapan lang ng monitor. Nag-iisip. Nag-aabang. Naghihintay. Zombie.
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Napatingin ako bigla sa dalawang maliit na aparador dito. punong-puno ng mga figurine, souvenir, stuffed toys. Parang itong baboy lang na may pink na ribbon sa ulo. naalala ko, bigay ko to kay mama para sa birthday niya. elementary pa ako noon... ilang araw kong pinag-ipunan para maibigay ko sa kanya sa kaarawan niya... ang ending, hindi nagustuhan. hayun, inaamag sa cabinet. malamang na pag nakita niya ulit ito, hindi niya maaalalang binigay ko sa kanya to. hindi pala uso ang "it's the thought that counts."
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andito rin lang sa may lamesa sa sala ang mga photo albums at yearbooks na wala namang nagbubuklat. Diyan ako nagtatago ng mga bold cd's ko nung bata pa ako kaso minsan nahanap ng pinsan ko. siyempre di ako umamin... sabi ko sa tito ko. tapos ang usapan. haha.
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andito rin lang nakakalat ang mga dancepads. isa sa amin, isa iniwan ng pinsan ko dito. malay ko ba dun. parang nagpapahiwatig ata. pinabibilis yata ang pagpapapayat ko. matagal na kasi ang usapan naming magpapayat ako. haaay. nagsawa na ata ang mokong sa pangako ko. hindi na niya mahanap yung damit na gusto ko isuot kapag payat na ako. ganun na katagal. haha.
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wala naman talagang konek ang mga istoryang yan. parang ako lang yan tuwing madaling araw... SABUG! gusto ko lang magsulat... yun bang wala lang. masabi lang na gising ako. mission accomplished.

OTH effect

2011-04-26T02:35:00.000+08:00

i'm watching season 5 of One Tree Hill right now and i'm surprised at how much i like it now than i did the first time my sister tried to push it down my throat. it is this show that is filled with poetry, drama, and apparently only good-looking people are allowed in this "reality." oh wait, that sounds a lot like my life. HA! I wish! Anyway, there is this one line spoken in the show that really struck me. it goes something like, "Wanting to do something is not enough. You have to do something about it so that you won't look back ten years from now and imagine what could have been."

I am 21 years old and as I right this, I am realizing how much I've missed on just because I always think that there's tomorrow for me to do all these things but the truth is that tomorrow doesn't always come. We should learn how to live each day as if it were last. God knows... maybe it is. Would you have forgiven yourself knowing you could have done something amazing now but instead, you wait for tomorrow that may or may not come? 10 years from now, i wouldn't want to look back and say, "damn, I bet it was easier to have abs when I was 21." So it's decided...

LISTAHAN

2011-04-15T02:24:00.000+08:00

remember the list that i made months back? the one i should finish before my next birthday? it's a lot harder to accomplish than i thought. 6 months gone and i am nowhere near half of finishing the list. getting a little worried... but then i always come through in the last second so i'm having my fingers crossed.

They say that one of the best ways to accomplish things is to broadcast them to a lot of people... Apparently, you'll work harder to avoid public scrutiny from failing. So, here it is...

21 Things to do while I'm 21
1) Read all Sidney Sheldon books
2) Be friends with somebody I don't like
3) re-connect with somebody from my past
4) Learn and play atleast 7 songs using a guitar
5) Fit into 32-in waist pants
6) Take a picture with a random stranger
7) Have a tattoo
8) Watch 7 films in 1 day
9) Meet atleast 2 bloggers in person
10) Perform in a crowd of atleast 100 people
11) Try bunjee jumping(or something similar)
12) Stay awake for 25 hours straight
13) Be a vegetarian for a week
14) not lie for 1 whole week
15) Have my hair colored
16) Jog for 30 days straight
17) Lie in the middle of session road
18) Ride a bus to unknown destination
19) Climb a mountain/go camping
20) start my own business/get a part-time job
21) sleep before 12AM for 1 month

haay... lifting weights?... think positive, walang AAYAW!

"Big PACKAGE"

2011-04-04T01:38:00.001+08:00

one of the things i like most in blogging is that i get to meet very interesting people.
some are nice.
some are nasty.
some are funny.
some are just plane weird.

but if you are lucky enough... you may just meet someone like ate Ilocana...

she is one of the first bloggers who have commented on my blog and she always have lots of nice things to say about my posts. i don't know if she's just being nice or she really find my writing "inspiring" but nonetheless it boosts my ego and makes me want to write as best i could. eventually, we shared stories like only friends would and it really feels nice to be able to have that kind of relationship with someone who lives in another continent. don't get me wrong, when i said "relationship," i meant a brother-sister kind of relationship. and what's great about her is that when she makes a promise, she'll do it.

mga ka-eyebags, behold...

i was excited... it was the first time someone has sent me a package. "ME," addressed in my name. haha. para akong batang nakakita ng regalo. and child i was when i opened the box...

haaay.. parang Christmas lang. hehe. Thank you for these gifts ate Ilocana. You could have sent me the letter alone and it would have made me just as happy... masaya lang ako na nag-effort kayo to make this little boy smile. hehe.

I would have modeled the shirts kaso medyo masikip pa... medyo lumobo kasi dala ng aking injury. OO. sinisi ko pa rin ang aking injury. hehe. you were asking if i liked the clothes... well...

it's my style

it's nice

it's interesting

are you sure? wahaha.

just kidding. I loved them all. Thanks ate... you are just wonderful :)

by the way... my sister says thank you :)

WHAT NOW?

2011-04-03T02:13:00.004+08:00

LIFE BEGINS NOW...

oh, and yeah... i'll be blogging more :)

walang mahanap na matinong picture sa baul. hehe

samu't saring kuwento 6: expectations, IMAGINATIONS, & The Holiday That Is Really Not.

2011-02-14T20:26:00.001+08:00

I've been watching some movies that i thought were really bad the first time i saw them. You know what's weird? I think they got better during the second viewing. I don't know how that's possible. Same material, same thing, same BANANA! I think the reason why I didn't enjoy them the first time is the fact that I read the reviews first and it escalated my expectations of those films... so whatever i saw was either worst than the reviews or didn't live up to them. So now, no reading of reviews for me... or maybe i'll just read them after :)

on second viewing:
HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON - better than most reviews(i thought it was good but the second viewing made me realize it was amazing)

GLITTER - not as bad as everyone claims it to be

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week 1 and week 2

week 3 and week 4

it's funny how an image that is so unappetizing would remind me so much of food.
week 1: burnt holiday family ham
week 2: tortang talong
week 3: breaded porkchop
week 4: tapa

nice. sa lahat ng nasuka, wag kayong mag-alala... hindi kayo nag-iisa. *pukes*
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i think my mom is in a hurry to get rid of us. kahapon, tinanong ako,"Valentine's day bukas, bakit wala kang date?"
Ma, i'm only 21. don't you want your baby(damulag?) in the house anymore?
anyway... ang panalong sagot ko: "Ma, marami akong pwedeng i-date. Ang issue, wala akong pang-date! Pahinging pera at hindi niyo ako makikita bukas."
mama: "tama yan anak. mag-concentrate ka sa pagaaral."

haha... ang bilis magbago ng isip?

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valentine's day... 4th consecutive year... no date... happy... ready :)

ang TOTOO

2011-02-12T00:29:00.002+08:00

Bakit ganun? Ang hirap maging mabuting kaibigan.
Siguro mahirap dahil iba't iba ang interpretasyo natin sa salitang "MABUTI."

-Mabuti ka kapag sumang-ayon ka sa lahat ng nais gawin ng kaibigan, ngunit masama ka kapag sumalungat ka... kahit pa ito ay para sa ikabubuti niya.
-Mabuti kang kaibigan kapag kaya mo siyang pagtakpan sa kanyang mga pagkakamali ngunit masama naman kapag gusto mo siyang ituwid sa tama.
-Mabuti kang kaibigan kapag ginawa mo ang lahat para mapasaya siya, pero ang masakit nun, masama ka pa rin kung ang lahat mo ay kulang pa rin sa kanya.

Minsan, nakakapagod ang maging mabuting kaibigan... siguro dahil gusto nating ituro ang kung ano ang TAMA at hindi ang TAMA para lang sa kanya. sabihan na ako ng masama... pero hindi mo pwedeng itangging ako ay naging TOTOO.
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UTANG NA LUOB! pwede bang paki-explain sa akin kung papaanong ang pagpinta ko ng napakagandang painting na ito...

parang si fernando amorsolo lang ang nagpinta no?

... ay related sa Critical Research? haaay... andami talagang misteryo sa buhay... Kung mahulaan mo ng tama kung ano ang ipinapahiwatig ng ubod ng gandang painting ko, may prize ka sa akin :)

I'm Fine.

2011-01-31T21:52:00.001+08:00

"how on earth do you stay positive?"

Tanong sa akin ng kaibigan nang maka-usap ko kamakailan sa facebook. Recently lang kasi niya nalaman ang trahedyang bumalot sa katauhan ng mabuting bata. Why stay positive? Bakit nga ba? Considering all of the things I've been through, hindi kataka-taka kung hindi sila maniwalang ayos lang ako. AYOS ako. Kahit naputukan ako sa braso, kahit asar sa mga taong mapansamantala, kahit lalo akong lumulobo, kahit wala akong lablayp(by choice naman), at kahit halos ubos na ang savings ko, AYOS pa rin ako. I'm okay because I choose to be okay. Wala rin namang magagawa ang pagmumokmok para maresolba ang mga problema ko. Sabi nga sa pelikula ni John Lloyd, "Hindi umiikot sa'yo ang mundo at hindi titigiil ito kahit mawala ka pa!" Kung magaling man mangumbinsi si John Lloyd o idol ko lang siyang talaga, hindi yun ang punto. Ang importante dun ay tama siya. Tuloy lang ang buhay. Kung ano man ang ginagawa ko nuon ay siya pa ring ipagpapatuloy ko.

Pumapasok pa rin ako...

Lecture with one of my favorite documentarists, Raffy Tima.

Nagkakawang-gawa...

children of Ama ng Kalinga foundation

Lumalamon?!?

my famous pasta alfredo. yummy :)

Sabi nga nila sa Ingles eh Business as usual. Tandaan na lang natin na ang problema ay hindi ang totoong problema dahil ang totoong problema ay kung papaano mo maipagsasabay ang BUHAY at PROBLEMA. Kung hindi mo naintindihan ang sinabi ko, problema mo na yun. hehe

Blogger mode: ACTIVATED!

another close call

2011-01-06T00:42:00.000+08:00

ang ganda ng salubong sa akin ng bagong taon. nagsindi ng defective na fountain.. ayun, sumabog! na-happy new year ang kawawang nightcrawler. too bad. i have to postpone all my plans for the start of the year, my business, my 21 things to do list.. everything. arghh... this sucks.

I've been counting, if i were a cat, i would only have 4 lives left. i'm starting to think that i am a jinx... but then again, i'm still alive. that probably means something right? i'm just happy i still have all of my fingers and nothing happened to my angelic(?) face. i'll be as good as new in no time... and by that i mean in a few months. tragic...

mahirap bang sagutin ang mga tanong sa Beauty Pageants?

2010-12-30T03:02:00.000+08:00

naging ringtone ng bayan din ang tawa niya! haha

who could forget the infamous answer of then Binibining Pilipinas World 2008 winner Janina San Miguel to the question, "what role did your family play to you as candidate to Binibining Pilinas?" the video remains to be one of my guilty pleasures and although it is cringe worthy, walang panahong hindi ako napatawa nito. Simple lang ang tanong kung tutuusin kung kaya madami ang nagtaka kung bakit hindi niya nasagot ito ng tama. was it nerves? or was the noice too much for her to think clearly? ewan...

My friends and I attended a modeling pageant called Mr. and Ms. Fashionista to support this guy who is an ex of a friend(long story... but they could be back together as of this writing). Anyway, he showed strength at the start of the pageant but his lack of experience showed in the succeeding rounds. Needless to say, he didn't make it. watching the pageant made me realize that events like these aren't only showcase of beauty and brains, but also... ewan. basta nakakatawa! bwahaha. lahat seryoso sa pagpalakpak pero kami ng mga kaibigan ko, tawa ng tawa. may mga contestants na mukhang busog, may mga mukhang bagong hasa ang baba, may nagmamadali kasi baka hinihintay ng taxi, at may contestant na parang bold star kasi lahat, mula creative, sportswear, casual, at swimwear ay naka trunks lang... siguro kung may trunks na pang-formal baka may pulmunya na yun. bwahaha. pero walang tatalo sa question and answer portion. madaming magaganda at pogi pero pumalya dahil dito at ang the best talaga ay ito:

Q: what would you rather have? beauty or talent?
A: talent!
Q: good answer. why?
A: uhm... YES!
(ano daw? bwahaha)

pero siempre, nakakatawa din ang mga hosts!

host1: let's give them a big HANDS!
h1: a big THANK to our sponsors...
(i swear, consistent siya! bwahaha. )
host2: tatagalugin ko ang tanong... if you were given a chance(haha. tatagalugin daw?)

ok.. so ano ang point ng kwento? wala naman. nakakatawa lang talaga. hehe. seriously... if we think about it, madali lang naman ang mga tinatanong sa mga pageants. minsan, natatanong din natin ang mga yun sa ating mga sarili... but then again, aren't the easiest questions the hardest to answer? naalala ko dati, natanong ako ng, "are you happy?" hindi ko nasagot. ang hirap. kaya i suggest na imbes na "what is your purpose in life?" ang tanong, mas maganda siguro kung "what is the capital of the Philippines?" nalang ang tanong para pag sinagot ka ng "ang capital po ng Philippines ay letter P!" legal na ang batuhin siya ng kamatis!

photo taken from http://t3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQHhOVBtyvj-Gn2Ft_NBRD5FNjPRrp15pqBuaMMpqPpqUD7ufGq

Christmas: EAT, PRAY, LOVE

2010-12-25T02:50:00.002+08:00

Eat
Bandang alas-sais ng gabi nang magsimulang maghanda para sa noche buena ang pamilya... and by that i mean my mom and sister taking care of everything while I do the almost impossible task of waiting for Noche Buena. hehe. after what seemed like eternity, siyempre nilantakan ko rin ang putahe na nakuha ni mama sa internet, and it was nothing short of heaven. ang SARAAAAP. too bad it was time to get ready for church, hindi ko tuloy naubos... este nalasap mabuti ang pagkain. hehe

Pray
as expected, jampacked ang simbahan sa bisperas ng pasko. it feels nice, to be able to say thanks for all the blessings, trials that have made us who we are and to be able to see that there are a lot of things to be thankful for and to look forward to in the years to come. kahit siksikan, ayos pa rin... all for the spirit of Christmas.

Love
pagkatapos ng mass, may 10-minute display pa ng fireworks sa plaza. to say that it was mesmerizing is an understatement. it was magical... made even more special by the people you are seeing it with. all those ooohs and ahhhs were such delight. pag-uwi ng bahay, kainan na ng masarap na handa. it's funny how when i was a kid, i always thought that what made each christmas feast happy was the food we eat... when all that really matters are the people we eat it with. o di ba? mature na talaga ang mokong. hehe.

this day was perfect... too bad i don't have pictures. although i'm not sorry at all. I'd rather have this wonderful memory in my heart than in my camera.

Merry Christmas you guys... from my family to yours , ' )

quickpost: thoughts?

2010-12-22T16:28:00.000+08:00

enough of the emo posts for now...
it's time for the annual Subol Christmas Caroling event. sa wakas.. mababayaran na rin nila ang utang nila sa akin! bwahaha.

by the way... what do you think of franchising foodcarts? i want to invest the little money that I have para naman yumaman. hehe. thoughts?

to all the bloggers all over the world... Advance merry christmas to you ALL.

batang inagawan ng candy...

2010-12-20T20:05:00.001+08:00

i just got back from my dentist's office. do you remember how some people calls news reporters the "boogeyman with a teleprompter?" well, my dentist is the boogeyman with perfectly white teeth. ayoko ng bumalik dun. para akong nagbabayad ng tao para saktan ako.. kung yun rin lang ang gusto ko, ate ko na ang lalapitan ko! free na, unlimited pa! bwahaha.

speaking of pain... i talked to one of my Kuyas. i felt bad kasi ang tagal na naming di nag-usap tapos masamang bagay pa yung mga nasabi ko sa kanya. andami ko na kasing hinanakit sa kanya... akala ko simpleng tampo lang, hindi pala.

ok... backstory muna para klaro ang istorya... anyone who is close to me knows that my biggest frustration is not having a kuya. naiinggit talaga ako kapag nakakakita ng mga kuyang inaalagaan yung mga kapatid nila, o kahit mga nagaaway nga eh kinaiinggitan ko pa rin. Yung una ko pang iniyakan na eksena sa tv ay yung eksena ni John Lloyd at Diether sa swimming pool. nakakuha ng award nun si john Lloyd pero hindi naappreciate ng parents niya kaya tinapon niya sa pool. si Diet naman na kuya niya, nilangoy yung pool para kunin yung medal tapos sabi niya, "sa akin importante to!" tapos, flashback ng mga eksena nila nung mga bata pa sila. p*kening. iniyakan ko talaga to. sobra akong nainggit.

camera-whore si kuya. nahawa tuloy ako...

Anyway, ayun nga, sobra talaga akong naghanap ng kuya kaya ng makilala ko si Kuya, sobra ko talagang pinahalagahan yung pagkakaibigan namin. Sobrang naging malapit kami to the point na nakikitulog na ako sa kwarto nila para lang mangistorbo at manuod ng mga pelikula. hehe. He was the one who tried to talk me out of joining a fraternity and that intervention was one of the reasons why i tried to back out(this is another story). we've been through a lot kaya it was hard for me nung malapit na ang graduation ni Kuya. we promised to keep in touch pero wala pang isang taon, nakalimot na siya. I remember nung graduation week niya, we were suppose to meet kaso busy siya sa ibang friends niya kaya sabi ko sa graduation ko na lang siya ico-congratulate. dumating yung graduation niya, nagpaiwan pa ako kasi last day ata ng summer classes para lang i-congratulate siya kaso natapos na ang ceremony hindi siya nagtext at nagpakita. habang sakay ako ng van pabalik sa amin, umiiyak ako na parang batang inagawan ng candy... parang t*nga lang.

pag ngumiti, kita ang gilagid!

fast-forward to present day, nag-message siya sa fb. hayun, nangangamusta. i told him everything... my frustrations and disappointments sa kanya. sabi ko na buong buhay ko, parati nalang akong iniiwan ng mga taong malapit sa akin... and each time, it gets a bit more painful than the last time at iyon din ang ginawa niya. at the end of our conversation, sabi niya speechless na siya... sabi ko, "it's ok. you've been speechless since your graduation." ewan ko ba... I should be immuned by now pero hindi ako matauhan. siguro tama rin yung isang kaibigan ko. i expect and give too much kaya parang parati akong lugi. when will I ever learn?
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On a lighter note, sa lahat ng nanalo sa PEBA, congratulations lalo na kay Xprosaic na nanalong most popular blog at kay pareng Jag na naka-vest at siyang tumanggap ng award ni xprosaic. hehe. Advance Merry Christmas to you all...

what's up?

2010-12-15T08:21:00.000+08:00

hey, what's up? it has been over a month since my last post and the reason why i was out for so long was because i needed a break... i didn't want blogging to be an obligation for me because i wanted to keep it the way i have always known it, fun, inspired and unpretentious. And now, i am back and refreshed to continue what i love doing, blogging.

so... how have you been?

samu't saring kuwento 5: love and hate

2010-10-30T17:23:00.002+08:00

I really don't get women. Sometimes, they fight for gender equality, sometimes they want special treatment. For example, whenever i'm on a line for a bus ticket or cafeteria, ladies would sneak in on the line and wouldn't give a damn about it. One time, i have waited an hour in a line and this girl came in front of me and declared, "pasingit ha?" take note, declared! not asked! pinag-isipan ko pa talaga kung ngingitian ko o sasakalin ko eh. maybe i'll do both next time...

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sabi nila, your friends are those who stick with you during your worst.. and that's true. but it's your job as their friend to avoid getting them into sticky situations. i mean, wouldn't it be nice to have them around at your best? kahit minsan lang.. para maiba naman.

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People will always say things about you. Sometimes good. sometimes bad. sometimes made-up. Let them talk. Have pity on those people who have nothing going on for themselves that they have to talk about other people who actually experience life.

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I haven't slept in a week because i finally discovered the link to Boy Meets World. The entire show has 7 seasons, and somehow, i have managed to finish 3 seasons(25 episodes each season) in just seven days. and that's not even the weird part... I cried like five times over this show, and it's comedy! i don't know if it's sleep deprivation or just a clear indication that i am losing it!

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kuya limwell, ako, allan, kuya francis

wala namang istorya sa kanila.. namimiss ko lang talaga tong mga mokong na to. it sucks... the minute you say, "wag kang mag-alala, walang magbabago," the opposite happens. hmmm... i should definitely put this on my to-do list while I'm 21, get these guys together again... kahit kaladkarin ko pa sila. nyahaha.

breaking free

2010-10-27T00:36:00.000+08:00

i'm having butterflies in my stomach again. it happens everytime i have to do something that i really don't want to do, or if i missed a meeting with "doro." haay... it is so easy to be happy, but getting everyone to be happy for you is another thing. i mean, for the first time in a really long time I am finally doing something that is good for me... something that makes sense for the path i want to take. It may look and sound like a crazy decision on my part but i feel like that's what I've been missing all my life. I have been sheltered and protected... even to a point that my life has become "our" life. well guess what, i am taking charge of my life. it may not be my best decision, it may even turn out to be a big mistake... but i know that this is a mistake i have got to commit. whatever the consequences of my actions will be are mine to be responsible for... and if they care for me as much as they say they do, then they would be there for me, cheering me on or giving me comfort. I am tougher and braver than what they give me credit me for. maybe this time, it's not me who needs the help...

i just wish i'm as brave in words as i am in my actions. someday i'll be able to tell them all these and more, but not today... maybe when they don't see me as a helpless little child anymore, or when they grow ears :(

The brother is APPARENTLY a PIG!

2010-10-25T03:05:00.003+08:00

Flattery(webster's dictionary)> insincere or excessive praise.
Flattery(nightcrawler's "made up" dictionary)> is the best cover-up/introduction for an insult.

we may have done it once or twice, may it be for something that is brought about by a good intention or something that is brought about by "politeness." here are some scenarios...

Scenario1> mom is not happy about son's weight gain: "alam mo anak, ang pogi mo... pero mas pogi ka nung payat ka. mag-diet ka nga! ang taba mo na!"

Scenario2> friend worried about lending his jacket to someone: "iyong isa na lang ang hiramin mo... mas bagay yun sayo. mas malaki!"

Scenario3> sister accompanies brother in fitting room: "ang ganda ng kulay, bagay sayo! pero huwag na lang iyan ang bilhin mo, may nakita akong large sa kabila!"

sugar-coating insults don't make them less painful... it actually makes them worst. but thankfully, i'm a dude. this is where boys being trained not to listen finally pays off!
"i'm tubby now, and i like it!" is what i would say if i am that someone but i am not. i'm not. nope. not really. hmpft!

cartoon version of me?

image taken from http://www.comicvine.com/tubby/29-2976/

samu't saring kuwento 4: may gatas pa sa labi

2010-10-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

apat na araw na akong hindi lumalabas ng bahay. it's frustrating, due mostly to the fact na puwede naman akong lumabas kung gugustuhin ko. i feel like a prisoner of my own doing, bilanggo ng katamaran. haay... i have bed soars all over my body, nakakapagod din ang sobrang pahinga. maybe it's the right time to start exercising again.
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i really don't want any of my friends or family to read my blog. It's not because I have something to hide but I feel like this is one part of me that I would rather have as "mine." I know it sounds weird given the fact that this blog is public and is open for anyone with internet connection but my blog serves as a haven where my thoughts are suppose to be exposed without inhibitions and I'm afraid that them knowing about this blog would subconsciously make me filter my writing. Do you have that feeling as well?
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i'm finding it hard to complete my list of 21 things to do while i'm 21. I am stuck at number 17. Fudge! it shouldn't be this hard.. can i count "Finish this list" as number 17? will that be considered cheating?
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when will moms get it that dinner is not the right time for sermon? sa dinami-dami ng reklamo at hinaing, ang naalala ko lang ay, "tumatanda na rin kayo, paano ka makaka-hanap ng girlfriend kung di ka lumalabas ng bahay?" huwaw... muntik na akong mabilaukan. sige po ma, masunurin naman akong anak eh. pahinging pang-date?! pinapa-migay na kami ni ate? bata pa naman ako ah!? may gatas pa ako sa labi...

ngek... alak na pala nasa labi namin. hehe.

samu't saring kuwento 3: boy meets world

2010-10-17T19:52:00.001+08:00

i want to write but words seem to evade my fingertips right now. i mean there are a lot of things going on about me right now but i'm finding it hard to type it all down and put into words. does it count as writer's block? i don't know but i think i owe it to myself to finish this post and write about something as my reward for staring at this damn monitor for the past three hours now. ok.. where to start?!... uhm... oh, i'm almost done with my list of 21 things to do while i'm 21. it's a lot harder than i thought but if i want to get started early and accomplish all of it in a year, i should put more effort into it. what else?! uhm... i'm kind of in a weird situation with some of my close friends. you see, i was told that sometimes friends forget how to act around each other after they have been apart for so long, and i guess in most cases that's true. but i don't want it to be weird around me and a friend.. i mean, we've been through so much and i don't want to see it all go to waste just because we couldn't get past this. how do you get into the friendship groove again? and i was told that my being close with a lot of people is becoming a problem... i don't know. am i really becoming a friendship slut? is such term really existing? haay... i'm also sad about leaving my friends and my organization. i'm not even sad about leaving the school but leaving them? it's devastating. how weird is it that just a week ago i was in a state of happiness and a week later, devastation? i'm beginning to think that i have multiple personalities, although i hope not.
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during my elementary days, even before my obsession with FRIENDS, i was hooked by BOY MEETS WORLD. it is a show about, well... a boy meeting the world! haha. it was a good show and i remember loving the show so much that i was devastated when it ended. i don't care about what others say but i really do believe that it was about me and that my life is patterned after cory matthews' life... i'd meet someone, be head-over-heels in love, have amazing friends and family, and live happily ever after. if only life is that easy... does anyone know if the show is on dvd? if you have the copy, give it to me... i'll give you big bucks!
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matagal na akong di nakakapag-blog hop. i have been so busy this past week na hindi ko na nasusubaybayan ang mga buhay ng mga paborito kong bloggers. after the mass mamaya, i'd spend the whole night reading and back-reading your posts.. i am so much behind already. yung iba pa naman diyan tatlo hanggang limang beses sa isang linggo kung mag-update ng blog nila. ok... i have to get ready now. may date pa kami ni Lord... pasasalamatan ko pa siya for everything sa buhay ko. talk to you in couple of hours , ' )

image taken from http://www.dreamstime.com/puzzled-smiley-icon-image32733

10-10-10 best. birthday. EVER. so far...

2010-10-11T04:48:00.005+08:00

biggest card i have ever received!

funny how i've been able to write a lot about my life for the past 13 months and have a hard time constructing a post for what is possibly the best birthday experience ever... so far. I mean, where do i even begin? will the awesome arm wrestling be a good way to start the story? or probably shooting hoops with my cousins and beating their asses?! maybe, it's the karaoke singing that stood out the most... but I have a soft spot for the lengthy joyride around the city. What about the big surprise/connivance of the three "baboys" who surprised me with a good cake and the biggest letter I have ever received? That was awesome. Just as awesome as the stroll on the beach with some buddies, or eating ice cream on a deserted basketball court in 1 am. and ofcourse, making few bucks for being cute and oh-so-awesome isn't my least favorite as well. haaay... my body aches all over but i don't care because i feel so loved. 10-10-10 has truly been one of the most beautiful days of my life... being able to share it with most of the people i love and cherish. major thanks to God for that wonderful experience, which by the way more than made up for that birthday fiasco a year ago. Salamat talaga. wala nang paglagyan tong saya ko ngayon.

too bad 10-10-10 was the same date for the bloggers' eyeball! darn! I so wanted to meet a lot of my fave blogging idols. haayy... i guess i'll wait for the next one. speaking of fave bloggers, thank you to those who wanted to party with me, although not physically but in spirit.

salamat yanah, xprosaic, superjaid, jag, and drake. da best talaga kayo!

salamat din sa lahat ng bumati sa akin sa cp, fb, twitter, email, comments section, etc. maraming salamat sa words of wisdom at sa mangilan-ngilang pambabalahura! at dahil good mood ako, salamat na rin sa mga nangakong magbibigay ng picture greeting pero di naman nagpadala! hmpft! kidding!

not growing up?

2010-10-09T00:44:00.001+08:00

i'll be 21 tomorrow... am happy and quite confused. is my being 21 mean that i have to be this responsible and mature person? i mean, we live in a world where perception of us means a lot and i just am not confident enough that i'll be able to act the way they want me to. don't get me wrong... in my own universe, i know i am a mature person... in a twisted kind of way. i don't always know what's right from wrong, but i know when to say sorry and when to stand my ground. i am a bit spoiled but i have learned to share my blessings. sometimes i can be emotional but... well, i don't care. haha. i guess what i'm trying to say is that i'm not sure if i can be the guy that they all expect me to be, but what i know is that i try my best to be the best guy that i know i can be. you can't pressure a guy, or any person for that matter, to be a certain type at a certain age. all these pressure nonsense about growing up is all crap. so to all of you people who expect men of maturity by 21, sorry for the disappointment. afterall, growing old is mandatory, but growing up is optional! or something to that effect...

photo taken from http://www.explodingdog.com/title/growingupisaggoodthingtodo.html

samu't saring kuwento 2

2010-10-04T03:08:00.000+08:00

the thing about mothers is that just when you think they get it, they don't. i mean, she keeps shoving me these self-help books about time management, goal-setting and all that crap about trying to find what's best for me and my future. the thing is i know what i want to do with my life. what i don't know is how to do it with her always breathing down my neck. i know mothers know best but sometimes they get so clueless... i guess it's our job as kids to teach the oldies huh? but in all fairness, she tries. i guess GOD programmed us that way: parents-TALK, kids-WHINE!

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kumain kami kanina sa isang sosyal na restaurant. for the record, it doesn't matter to me where or what we eat, it's who you eat it with that matters... pauso ko lang para kunwari deep! haha. pero di nga... kahit sa jobee lang ayos na ako. anyway, disappointed ako sa lasa ng pagkain. yung sinabawang sotanghon walang lasa saka yung spare ribs parang good for 3 ants lang sa konti. haaay... i swear, for a restaurant that expensive(vat should be inclusive by the way... mga pasaway) i expected a lot better. i could have cooked a more decent meal with half the price. haay.. sabi nga sa kasabihan... walang matabang na nilaga sa patis na maalat! di ko alam kung anong relevance niyan sa istorya, pauso ko lang ulit!

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something that not a lot of people know about me is that i love to write... and i've been working on this novel for so long pero nahihiya akong ipabasa sa iba. i guess takot akong makarinig ng pangit na salita... you know, everyone's a critic nowadays. kaya i have decided to put it on my to-do list... my 21 things to do while i'm 21. kanina ko lang naisip yan and again, pauso ko lang. at dahil kanina ko lang naisip, lima pa lang ang nasa listahan ko. 1) read all sidney sheldon books 2) reconnect with someone from my past 3) be friends with somebody i don't like 4) let someone read my novel 5) fit into my 32-in waist pants... i still have a week to complete my list and a whole year to accomplish them. wish me luck. how about you? do you have a to-do list for yourself? were you successful?

nga pala, dun sa may pangarap maging professional tv/movie writer, a golden opportunity came up. Jun Lana, famous award-winning writer and youngest Palanca hall of famer is conducting a free writing mentorship for three months. take note, writing mentorship at hindi workshop kasi gusto niyang turuan yung mga taong gustong gawing propesyon ang pagsusulat at hindi hobby lang. for more information on how to join, check out jun lana's blog on junlana.blogspot.com. bilisan niyo rin dahil tatlo lang ang pipiliin niya. if only i had the time, i would join but since i don't, i guess ikakalat ko na lang ang magandang balita. you're welcome guys.
ps. kung sakaling makuha ka at dito mo nalaman ang tungkol sa mentorship, gawin mo akong bida sa pelikula mo ha? o kahit supporting na lang muna... ok? ayos :P

photos taken from http://www.cartoonstock.com/directory/d/disagreed.asp; http://www.examiner.com/la-in-los-angeles/jollibee-the-philippine-answer-to-mcdonald-s; http://junlana.blogspot.com/

taking the leap

2010-09-28T00:40:00.003+08:00

it's so hard making decisions, especially when given choices that can alter the course of your future. i mean, how do we even know the best one? isn't it frightening to know that one bad decision can turn the rest of your life into a living hell? of all the useless junks invented each day, why couldn't they come up with a device to help us make the best decisions? wouldn't that be just grand? well, i guess not.because then, we wouldn't have the chance to succeed or lose on our own. at the end of the day, we want ourselves to be credited for something, for anything... may it be for something that we can really be proud of or something that we can learn from. and all of these decisions come from taking the leap. a leap from uncertainty to just knowing, from hesitation to just going for it.

the leap. why is it that my tomorrow seems too far to reach? why am i afraid to take the leap? is it because the leap could as easily be a turn on the wrong direction as it can be on the right one? i guess what most people don't realize, and what i realized just now, is that we have been taking leaps all our lives. it's just a question of where to hop on next. are we going to let our past get the best of our future? or just let it all go and take the leap?

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nga pala, salamat sa lahat ng mga nagpadala na ng picture greetings para sa birthday ko. nakakatouch. sa mga hindi pa nagpapadala, take the leap(maisingit lang?) at magsend na sa jr_2pak@yahoo.com. 10-10-10 is the big day. tandaan, mamalasin ka pag di ka nagpadala... bwahaha.

photo taken from http://www.sparkplugging.com/sparkplug-ceo/taking-the-leap-from-employee-to-entrepreneur/

pangarap lang

2010-09-22T11:32:00.002+08:00

hiling sa bituin

minsan, hindi na natin naaalala kung papaano nabubuo ang mga pangarap natin sa buhay. maaring bata ka palang ay pangarap mo ng maging doktor, piloto, sikat na artista, o kahit na lang maging kamukha ni john lloyd. masarap mangarap lalo na't libre naman, pero doble ang sakit kapag nalaman mong ang pangrap na yon ay hindi mo na maaabot pa. ang mas masakit pa dun, alam mo na ngang hindi na puwede, umaasa ka pa rin. ang mundo na ang nagdedesisyon para sayo pero ayaw mong makinig. ano pang pinagkaiba natin sa pusang naghahabol sa sinulid? habul ng habol sa isang bagay na wala namang importansya/halaga sa buhay nito. maswerte ka na kung magising ka isang araw at mauntog sa katotohanan. "it's just a thread, why do i even want it?"

Hindi lahat ng pangarap ay para sayo. maaring nakalaan ito para sa iba o may mas malaking pangarap na nakalaang matupad para sayo. tulad ko, pangarap ko dati na maging kamukha ni john lloyd. p*kening! ang binigay sa akin yung hairline niya. ayan, malapit nang mapanot! siguro talagang nakatadhana nang maging kamukha ko lang si piolo. haaay :(

photo taken from http://toki88.deviantart.com/art/Munting-Pangarap-27063371

NO. SLEEP. LIBRARY

2010-09-18T13:16:00.000+08:00

3:00 - entered the library to take a quick nap before next class
3:10 - woke up because of the loud noise from the people fixing a table in front of me and found a girl staring intently at me. i'm sleepy. close eyes again...
3:30 - woke up because of the loud noise again. more people are staring now at the noisy people. cute girl is nowhere in sight and i decided to go for one last nap before class.
3:50 - awakened by the noise created by the table being fixed. Gosh. don't they know that loud noises and library don't go together? i stood up, grabbed my bag, and headed for next class.
3:55 - arrived early for class. i took my usual chair in the back and waited patiently. i noticed the "staring girl" from the library is in the same class and is now approaching me... she stared, smiled, and whispered, "buti hindi ka pinagalitan... ang ingay mo kanina eh."

--- i realized that i snore when i sleep, and that those stares were probably for my noise and not the table-fixing guys. aargh... note to self: no more sleeping in the library!
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grabe, napahiya ako dun... you know what would make me feel better? pag nakatanggap ako ng picture greetings mula sa inyo(hindi ako kasing galing sumegue ni idol pagdating dito. hehe). malapit na kaya i-send niyo na lahat sa jr_2pak@yahoo.com... tandaan, 21st birthday ko kaya walang balahuraan! nyahaha. salamat sa mga nagpadala na :P

image taken from http://www.cartoonstock.com/
directory/p/public_library.asp

a trip down memory lane

2010-09-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

nakaka-pagod maglinis ng kuwarto! it took me the whole day para lang magmukhang disente ulit at kaiga-igaya ang kuwartong ito. haay.. atleast hindi na siya mukhang gubat. medyo na-sorpresa nga ako sa dami ng mga gamit at basurang nakatambak sa mga sulok... ngayon napapa-isip ako kung papaano akong nakatagal ng ganito sa kuwartong ito. sobrang linis na ng kuwarto ko, nakaka-panibago. normally, hindi naman talaga ako mahilig mag-linis ng kuwarto.. it's just that i felt like i needed to do this to sink my teeth on the reality that i am moving back in really soon... para hindi na ako mag-dalawang isip! haha.

anyway... hindi lang naman ako basta naglinis. it was actually an interesting experience because it gave me the chance to reminisce about the ancient days. for example, i found these recognition cards and medals that i got when i was a lot younger. wow... nakakatuwa naman. most cheerful. most responsible. most helpful. poetry writing champion. math olympics champion. kung iisa-isahan ko lahat, parang nakakalula. it was great seeing all these achievements from my childhood pero parang napa-isip din ako.. nasaan na kaya yung batang yun? yung batang puno ng abisyon, ng pangarap. masaya kaya siya si kinahinatnan ng buhay niya ngayon? kapag nakaharap ko kaya siya, sasabihin ba niyang "good job?" haayy... ang daming what ifs. i don't know. i'm not sure anymore. that kid is long gone... nothing but a distant memory.

i found my old guitar. naalala ko tuloy when i was in high school. i so wanted a guitar of my own and when my mom finally gave in, i made sure that i had the coolest, most expensive acoustic guitar i could find. i used to love playing this thing. everyday akong nagpa-praktis nuon para lang matugtog yung paborito kung kanta na "more than words." haayyy... it's been a long time. i got so busy na nakalimutan ko ang passion ko sa pagtugtog at pagkanta. nung mahawakan ko ulit ang gitara, i was surprised kasi marunong pa pala ako. tama nga ang sabi nila, para lang daw pag-ba-bike yan na kapag natuto ka na ay hindi mo na makakalimutan kung papaano gawin. so, kung may magrerequest, game ako kahit anong kanta!
ps. leaving on a jetplane, crazy for you, jeepney, at your love na lang ang kaya kung tugtugin ng buo kaya dun lang kayo pumili ok? hahaha.

ang pinakanagustuhan ko sa mga lahat ng mga nahalungkat ko ngayon ay ang mga sulat. yup... i have always loved receiving letters from family and friends at ngayong nabasa ko ulit, parang bumalik ulit yung mga alaala nung natanggap ko yung mga yun. tulad nung isang letter na galing dun sa kaibigan ko. may nakasulat na lyrics ng isang cheesy na kanta at cheesy rin na mensahe. it reminded me na once in my life, i was a mushy kind of guy! haha. too bad konti na lang ang sumusulat ngayon... wait... it gave me an idea. next time na manliligaw ako, idadaan ko sa sulat! haha. i find it romantic, don't you?

hindi ko talaga alam kung saan patungo tong post ko. i'm not thinking very clearly right now... all i know is that i have to capture this feeling that i'm experiencing right now. a sense of comfort, of familiarity, of home. it's been a long time since i have felt this way... i guess all i had to do was clean up my closet, keep the things that made me believe, and throw away the things that made me doubtful. if only life is always this easy...

reality vs. fantasy

2010-09-10T14:56:00.000+08:00

madalas natatanong natin kung bakit tayo dumaranas ng hirap sa buhay. sometimes, it seems unfair na parang lahat ng bigat sa mundo ay nasa balikat mo. you try to walk past all of the hardships but everytime that you do, the world finds a way to knock you down even harder. but you know what? that's ok. because without suffering, there would be no compassion... and all those pains are the things that keep us different from others. it's what makes us human. so everytime you feel more pain than others, that's ok 'cause it only means that you are more human than everyone else.

and one more thing, endings aren't always bad because they serve as beginnings for new opportunities... so new opportunities, here i come , ' )
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nakakatakot yung twist ng story

so far, i have read 6 sidney sheldon books. two of them even gave me an excuse to use my library card. haha. i don't know what these books have on me but everytime i read 'em, i feel like no one could touch me. it's just me and those books. do you have that too? things that hypnotizes and sucks you in... transports you back to those times when the rest of the world didn't matter? for me, i have Archie comics, FRIENDS series, and my books. they take me to a different state of happiness that it makes me wish that i could stay there a bit longer. just a bit... and then I'd wake up and realize that reality is so much better. may internet sa reality eh.

photos taken from http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/43326.Tell_Me_Your_Dreams and
http://www.google.com.ph/search?hl=tl&q=world+on+shoulders+pictures&aq
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nightcrawler turns 1

2010-09-06T05:30:00.002+08:00

exactly one year ago, pinasok ko ang mundo ng pagba-blog. i wasn't expecting anything really, and if you were with me from the very beginning or masipag kang mag-backread ng mga posts, i'm sure you know that my alter-ego was born out of boredom, angst, insomnia, and a great deal of binge-eating. one year later, well, i'm still writing about all those things... only, now i write out of wanting and not needing. i have always known that i loved writing, but i didn't realize that it can save me from total insanity and destruction that i brought upon myself. for that and so many other things, i thank

God for showing me the light in the darkness and that there is life after "almost" death(i'll have to explain this on another post)
mom, for pushing me to my limits and for the unconditional love and support, sometimes to an amount that i didn't even know was humanly possible.
my sister, for the love and care that you try to hide but comes bursting out instead.
my friends, who wouldn't give up on me and stuck it out with me during the worst time of my life. you guys are for keeps.
at sa mga kaibigan at idol ko sa mundo ng pagba-blog, for keeping me inspired and constantly reminding me how good it feels to write about things that matter to me.

i know it sounds corny but that's who i am... a corny guy with a laptop and internet connection. and i bet you are too... otherwise hindi mo masisikmura ang mga pinagsususulat ko dito. haha.

ps. i just realized na late ng isang araw itong post ko dahil september 5 ang anniversary ng blog ko. haay... nga pala, my 21st birthday is fast approaching. to those who want to celebrate it with me, pwede kayong magpadala ng picture greetings sa jr_2pak@yahoo.com on or before october 9... come on, make me smile on my special day. pretty please? with ice cream on top?
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pumapatak nanaman ang ulan...

2010-08-30T00:27:00.001+08:00

ilang buwan nang parating umuulan dito sa Baguio. for some reason, hindi naman tinatablan ang aking resistensya ng kahit na anong sakit kaya convinced na talaga akong hiyang ako sa malamig na lugar. ang hindi ko lang gusto sa mga panahong ganito, sobrang nakaka-senti! napapasulat tuloy ako sa likod ng notebook ko. hehe.
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August 6

umuulan na naman sa Baguio. naaasar ako tuwing umuulan dito, bukod kasi sa wala akong payong(andami ko daw pambili ng pagkain pero wala akong pera pambili ng payong?!) ay parati rin kasing nasisira ang mga sapatos ko. naalala ko tuloy nung first year pa lang ako. bago mag-pasukan, bumili ako ng mga mamahalin at orig(take note of mamahalin. hehe) na sapatos para naman maganda ang salubong sa akin ng una kong semestre sa unibersidad. P*kening! hindi pa man tapos ang unang semestre, lumuluwa na at naghihingalo ang mga sapatos ko. haay... sayang ang pera kaya simula nun, madalas na akong mag-tsinelas papuntang schoool, tutal naman ay ok lang ang pumasok nang naka-tsinelas. minsan pa nga, may pumasok na ang suot ay pajama, with matching umuusok na kape at sabog ang buhok ha?!

Teka, bakit nga ba ako naghahalungkat ng ala-ala mula sa baul? Eh kasi naman, nakaka-senti ang ulan! saka wala akong mapuntahang iba dito sa school dahil hiniaram yung id ko(hindi tuloy ako makapasok ng library) at basa naman ang tambayan! ayaw ko namang tumambay sa canteen at baka matukso pa akong lumamon kaya ang ending, hindi ko man ginusto, andito ako sa piling ng una kong minahal. whops, wag kang excited! hindi ex ang tinutukoy ko, kundi ay ang lugar na bumuo sa ilan sa mga maliligayang taon ko sa unibersidad, ang Guidance Councilor's Office. whops! teka lang ulit, hindi ako pasaway kaya ako lagi dun. doon kasi ang tambayan ng grupong sinalihan ko. noong ikalawang taon ko sa kolehiyo, naging parte ako ng Peer Facilitator's group, kung saan naging layunin namin ang tumulong sa mga "bagong salta" sa unibersidad. haay... nakaka-miss. may mga bagay talaga na kahit sobrang mahal mo, kailangan mong pakawalan dahil hindi na kayo makahinga nang magkasama. ganun pa man, mananatili ang mga ala-ala at layuning inukit nito sa aking pagkatao, lalo na ang mga taong minahal ko kasama ng samahan. P*kening! sobrang kadramahan na to! tama na nga, tutal tumigil na rin ang ulan. sabi nga nila, "masarap ang umiyak tuwing umuulan dahil naikukubli ng mga patak ng ulan ang patak ng kalungkutan." dahil tumila na ang ulan, masaya na dapat ulit. dapat...
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i just realized, mas masarap pala ang pasta pag hindi na mainit. yumyum. hehe. saka, ilang araw na lang pala, isang taon na ang aking blog. wow, halos isang taon na pala akong nagba-blog. akala ko hindi na ako aabot ng anim na buwan eh. hehe. any ideas for a blogaversary?(i know, totally corny. but still...)

photo taken from http://member.mibba.com/155542/

MASAYA

2010-08-23T23:52:00.003+08:00

kung kaya ko lang liparin to, gagawin ko

it has been awhile since i poured my emotions in here. ganoon naman kasi talaga ako eh. i don't like talking about problems... gusto ko parating masaya kahit na minsan ay hindi na kaya. i feel like i have caused so much problem and pain to a lot of people na umabot na sa point na i feel so useless and that hiding behind a mask would make it all better, kahit para na lang sa kanila. madalas natatanong ko sa sarili ko kung bakit hinahayaan kong maging ganito ang buhay ko. may patutunguhan pa ba ako? para akong ibong hindi makawala sa hawla. gusto kong lumipad... pero hindi ko alam kung saan. minsan, nakakabaliw na talaga. gusto kong maging malaya sa lahat ng nagpapahirap sa akin ngunit paano? paano ko magagawang kumawala sa mga bagay na nagpapahirap sa akin kung sila din ang mga bagay na nagiging rason ng aking pagkabuhay? nakakatawa hindi ba? nakakatawa...

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Marami tayong taong nakakasalamuha sa araw-araw. Minsan, may mga taong matagal mo ng kasama, matagal mo ng mahal, ngunit hindi mo pa pala lubusang nakikilala. Maaring nakaka-usap mo ang isang tao ngunit hindi kayo nagkaka-intindihan. Nahahawakan mo siya ngunit hindi mo siya maramdaman. nakikita mo siya pero ilusyon lang pala. Kagabi, nakilala ko ng lubusan ang aking ina. ilang taon ang lilipas, makakalimutan natin ang mga eksaktong bagay na sinabi natin sa isa't isa, ngunit hindi ang pakiramdam na sa unang pagkakataon, naintindihan kita. maaming salamat ma... mahal kita.

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sa lahat ng nakakakwentuhan ko dito, salamat sa inyo. Hindi niyo lang alam kung gaano niyo napapagaan ang pakiramdam ko. halos isang taon na rin akong nagkukwento ng mga kadramahan, katakawan, katatawanan, at kung anu-ano pang kuwan tungkol sa buhay ko. salamat sa lahat.
ps. hindi naman ako tumigil sa pagba-blog, nagpahinga lang sandali. demanding ka? P*kening! hehe. joke lang.

BROmance on a BROdate part 2

2010-08-07T21:07:00.002+08:00

heto na ang part 2. umpisa pa lang, binalaan na niya ako na wag ako male-late! nasanay kasi siyang naghihintay ng mga isang oras kapag may lakad kami eh. hehe. buti nga, di ako iniiwan niyan sa mga lakad namin, parati kasi akong late, parating puyat!hehe. at dahil by request, nagising ako ng sobrang aga at siya naman ang na-late! bawian? haha. una sa agenda namin ang manuod ng sine. Kung hindi niyo pa alam, pareho kaming fanatic ng avatar:the legend of aang. iyon dapat ang panunuorin namin kaso sinabi ng girlfriend niya na pangit daw at baka mag-wala lang kami sa sinehan. pakening iyang mnight shyamalan na yan! binaboy nga niya ang last airbender! sobra akong disappointed dahil ilang buwan ko ding hinintay yan. asar talaga. hmpft! kaya ang ending, nanuod na lang kami ng...

Cinco... siyempre dapat support our local movie industry. hehe. taking all into consideration, i think Cinco was an effective horror film. pagdating namin sa sinehan, puno pa rin, to think na pangalawang linggo na yata sa sinehan, at nakakabingi sa sigawan. Most notable iyong kay jodi sta maria. ang galing niya dun. siguro mas maganda yun kung ginawang isang pelikula na lang yung episode niya. may nakakatawa ding eksena dun. sa mga naka-panuod na, natawa din ba kayo dun sa eksena sa first episode na may background song na "hawak kamay?" bwahaha! tawa kami ng tawa. siyempre, hindi ko na masyadong ikukwento ang pelikula dahil galit ako sa mga SPOILERS! hehe. panuorin niyo to.

Anyway, pagkatapos naming manuod ng sine, we indulged ourselves sa sale sa national bookstore. my "brother from another mother" is more into the novelty kind, and as you all know, i like books from albom or sheldon. masarap gumala sa sale, maraming magandang books ang binebenta for as cheap as P99. Ang nabili niya ay collection of horror stories(di naman siya masyadong mahilig sa katatakutan?!). Ako naman, since out of stock ang mga libro ni sidney sheldon, I opted for Joy Fielding's Still Life.

At siyempre, hindi matatapos ang lakwatsa kapag walang tsibugan. Since halata naman na malakas kaming kumain ngayon, pumunta kami sa restaurant na may masarap na oreo smoothie at katakam-takam na clubhouse sandwich. wow talaga, ang sarap ng pagkain... para na kaming bibitayin kinabukasan sa sobrang pag-lamon! nyahaha.

Bago kami matapos kumain, may mga naabutan din kaming batchmates. Nagkataon na meron palang maliit na get-together ang ilan naming mga batchmates nung highschool nang gabing yun. hindi naman talaga kami sobrang close ng mga yun pero dahil mapilit sila, pumunta na rin kami. Isang oras din kami siguro dun bago kami umuwi. medyo awkward kasi di naman talaga sila ang kahalubilo namin nung highschool kaya mabilis na kaming umeskapo. wala ding pictures kasi di nga kami close eh... hehe

medyo late na rin kaming naka-uwi. kahit pagod, masaya pa rin kami kasi kahit na matagal kaming hindi nagkasama, masarap isipin na walang pinagbago ang aming samahan. this is just exactly what i needed, a breather from my ever-stressful, so called life. maraming salamat bro! the best ka talaga!
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alam ko na ang iniisip niyo. I know, I gained some weight! kasalanan yan ng Baguio. parating umuulan kaya masarap kumain. hehe. kailangan nang mag-diet para sa yearbook! pahirapan nanaman to...

poster taken from http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_J6smb7zeulI/
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Kapag limilipad ang utak...

2010-08-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

kahit na gaano ka-studious ang isang estudyante, kung talagang boring ang prof, lilipad at lilipad ang isip mo. hindi naman sa jina-justify ko ang paglipad ng utak ko, pero... parang ganun na nga! haha. heto na nga ang paglipad ng utak ni nightcrawler sa klase ni penguin...

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July 30 2010

Bakit ang boring ng klase ni ma'am? sana naka-hood ako para pwede ako umidlip... kaso baka humilik ako kaya wag na lang. haaay... Ang sarap ng Alo Green tea(grapes flavor ang masarap). Ang baho naman ng katabi ko, parang hindi naligo. Medyo nakaka-distract iyong babae sa harap ko kasi pinaglalaruan niya yung extra fats niya sa likod niya. awkward... teka, bakit mukhang penguin si ma'am? haha. nakakatawa naman tong mga klasmeyts ko. lahat, kunwaring nagbabasa pag nagpapa-recite na si ma'am. hahaha. at marami ang naka-itim ngayon ah. marami ang emo?! naka-red ako ngayon, para POGI! Ang boring talaga, Naglalaro na kami nung seatmate ko na mabahao ng lucky 9. dinadaya ata ako, hindi pa ako nananalo eh. hala! nagngangatngat na ng kuko yung babae sa harap. Every ten minutes, may tumitingin sa relo kung time na. hindi lang pala ako ang bored. Kumakain ako ngayon ng Tapioca na parang walang condensed milk! L*che! Haay salamat at tapos na rin ang klase ni penguin... baka hinahanap na ni batman. hihi.

ps. paglabas ng klasrum, nalaman kong yung sapatos ko pala ang mabaho, naka-apak ng ebaks! yaks!

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haha... malamig na gabi mga parekoy , ' )

picture taken from http://picture-book.com/files/userimages/

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BROmance on a BROdate part 1

2010-08-01T17:38:00.000+08:00

Sa lahat ng sumusubaybay sa aking blog, I'm sure na alam niyong medyo problemado ako ngayon. It isn't really just about one thing, but rather mixture of things that i had no control of, wished I could do or didn't have to do. It's just really frustrating and I'm pretty sure i was a few days shy of having a nervous breakdown. And just when all hope is gone, a very good friend of mine FINALLY communicated with me. ok, i should explain. We are really good friends for years now and we were roommates during our first year in college(i eventually had to move out because my school is very far from our pad), but for the past year, our communication "kinda" went off. we were both busy with school work, and both of us were trying to "re-build" ourselves from wrong decisions from the past. we got caught up with all these crazy things which led to our friendship hiatus. fast-forward to a few days ago, when he sent me a message saying thank you for the greeting i sent him during his birthday a week earlier. i was pleasantly surprised! it was like a brother calling you after waking up from a coma. we immediately went to our old ways of talking and we decided to meet up on a weekend(which was yesterday).

kami ay mahilig lumamon!

Anyway,before our meeting, we unexpectedly met up a day earlier. he was visiting his girlfriend of four years, and he decided to call me up to see if i was still in the city so that we can get an early re-acquaintance before our brodate the next day. he is still the same guy that i am brothers with, kind, generous and a little chubby(good thing he doesn't know that I blog. bwahahaha!). Anyway, we got to talking and it was like we have not lost touch at all and I'm pretty sure that all the passengers were annoyed by how talkative and playful we were during the ride. I couldn't think of the last time i had so much fun during a 2-hour ride before. it was awesome and... well, it was just a preview of what was going to happen the next day...
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next post na lang yung second half para masaya!(huh?!) bwahaha. anyway, thanks bro. you always know what to do.

Fudge!

2010-07-28T16:43:00.003+08:00

The more that I do this, the more that I'm convinced it's not meant for me. It breaks my heart, and it will break others'...

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oh fudge! sobrang emo. all black pa ako ngayon. no wonder some of my friends think I'm suicidal. bawal na pala mag-black ngayon? haaay... I'm not suicidal... atleast not yet. fudge!

Parang Book Review Ata..

2010-07-24T08:03:00.001+08:00

Okay, I admit. Kung minsan, nakakatamad magbasa ng readings sa school... Kaya kailangan paminsan-minsan ng break at magbasa naman ng iba. I recently discovered a new favorite author, Sidney Sheldon. Sa sobrang pagka-aliw ko sa libro niya, di na ako naka-kain at nakapag-basa ng matino. hehe. at napasulat pa talaga ako, in English. ganyan ako pag nabibilib, napapa-slang! HWOW! haha
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July 16, 2010

I have always loved reading novels. The ones I love to read are the kind that involves heart-warming or inspirational stories, which is why some of my go-to authors are Mitch Albom and Nicolas Sparks(yup! I am corny like that! Haha.) This very reason made me hesitant to read this book that my friend was trying to make me read. It was by Sidney Sheldon, The Sky is Falling. I was told that it wasn't really my kind of novel but I might find it interesting... And so I did, I gave it a shot and I'm glad I did. I'm not really sure how to describe the book, but it was definitely an experience. It had enough "bite" to keep my heart pounding through the last pages of the book. My heart was POUNDING, over a BOOK?! And the characters and twists are well thought of and well crafted, almost at par with the Bourne series. Needless to say, I was hooked! I was so hooked that I missed dinner and made me forget about exams and deadlines. I am definitely buying myself a copy of the book, and probably more of his other works later.

http://www.squidoo.com/sidney-sheldon
PS. My first anniversary as a blogger and my 21st birthday are fast approaching... it would be nice to receive Sidney Sheldon book/s as gifts. Haha! Demanding?
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Nabasa ko na rin yung prequel nito, yung Best Laid Plans. Astig! parang ang hirap gawan ng pelikula! haha

Sakit sa ulo

2010-07-17T12:25:00.001+08:00

tama bang magpa-tattoo sa batok? at tama bang ballpen ang gamitin? haha

Ayon kay Karl Marx, "individuals should only work for 6 hours and spend the rest of the day to better and glorify them themselves." Bakit kaya hindi siya pinakinggan ng tao? kung iisipin, may point naman siya. madalas, sampung oras o mahigit pa ang ginugugol natin sa pagaaral o trabaho. Pagdating sa bahay, wala nang energy para sa kung anuman at diretso tulog na para simulan ulit ang mahigit sampung oras na trabaho. Kung iisiping mabuti, para saan nga ba ang pagpupursige natin? Hindi ba't para sa mahal mo sa buhay?... na hindi mo na nakakasama dahil lahat ng oras mo ay nasa trabaho. Hindi ba't para sa sarili mo rin?... na hindi man lang makapag-pahinga dahil sa dami ng trabaho. At the end of day, para nga ba kanino ang paghihirap nating ito? Sagutin niyo nga... Sagutin niyo!

-Sagot ng isang batang itago natin sa pangalan na nightcrawler
sa mga kaibigan niya kung bakit mas kailangang magpahinga
kesa maglinis ng bahay! haha.

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pakening! nanakawan nanaman ako ng wallet. Nakita na lang sa tabi na wala nang laman. Asar talaga. Buti na lang nasanay na ako na P500 lang ang maximum na laman ng wallet. Dati kasi, nanakawan na rin ako nang halos P5000 ang laman eh. kaya kayo, mag-ingat ha? mahirap na ang buhay ngayon!

Hindi rin naka-tiis!

2010-07-05T16:45:00.001+08:00

hey guys... what's up? it's been more than two weeks since my last post at talagang nakaka-miss magsulat at magbasa ng mga blogs niyo. Sobra kasing naging hectic ang schedule ko, at kahit ngayon ay medyo busy pa rin talaga ako. Anyway, hindi pa rin naman talaga ako tumigil sa pagsusulat. everytime maka-singit ako ng kaunting oras ay nagsusulat pa rin ako ng mga pangyayari sa buhay ko. heto ang isa sa mga naisulat ko habang naghihintay sa isang klase...
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June 24, 2010

There was a point in my life when i felt like loneliness is synonymous to being alone. Everytime I end up by myself, I question myself, "Am I not a fun person? Am I annoying? Am I not worthy of a companion?" There was a time in highschool when I watched a film in a moviehouse alone. I watched the film POSEIDON, a less budgeted, lamer version of Titanic. I was sitting there, enjoying the crap that is Poseidon, when I realized that I have no one to share this crappiness with. I went home feeling like the seat next to me, Empty.

Years later, I have striven to be active in different activities to keep me busy. I joined a peer facilitator's group, choir, psych group, a regional organization, etc. None the less, I got over my fear of being alone. In fact, I barely have time for myself. Even when I am alone, I know that I'm not because I'm constantly in communication with all my commitments. I used to think that surrounding me with lots of people will keep me out of my fear. It takes moments like this, walking alone in an empty hallway, to appreciate and realize what had been missing all along. I figured that the reason I was unhappy during my younger years is that I wasn't happy with myself. I was always depressed, thinking about things that were way beyond my control and I believed that I can only be happy in the presence of others. I wasn't happy, not until I have learned to accept things as way of life, that I can only control so much of it. Learning all these have made me love myself even more and I have become a more positive person.

Apparently, being an optimistic person attracts the opposite, not that I am complaining, but it made me realize that what they are going through right now was exactly where I was before, lost and unapreciative of his own being. I hope I can help them find what's missing, that certain thing that made me realize that happiness starts from within, and when you radiate happiness, it is one of the best feelings in the world.

Even in an empty hallway, crazy as it may sound, I don't feel alone anymore. In fact, I cherish this moment I have for myself and I enjoy it even more because I know that it will take a while again before I get to do this again. I am alone, but not really. I am happy.
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oh, sorry na... hindi ko kayo nabalaan na nobela nanaman itong post ko. pagbigyan niyo na ako, paminsan-minsan lang naman eh. hehe. Salamat sa lahat ng readers na patuloy na nagbabasa ng blog na to(meron pa ba? haha) at lalo na sa mga hindi nagskip-read diyan, ang tiyaga niyo talaga. hehe. at siyempre, salamat din kay pareng fiel-kun para sa award na to...

salamat parekoy. you're the beast. este, best pala.

none at all?!

2010-06-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

i have always hated father's day because while everyone is celebrating, it always reminds me of the fact that i have no one to celebrate it with. all those texts i receive each year, greeting my father and congratulating him for teaching me to be a good person, just makes me cringe a little. last night, a good friend texted me and said, "you know what insan(he has nicknames for his friends), your parents did a great job in raising a fine gentleman that you are. So happy father's day to your dad..." i was so heartbroken when i received the message, not because he was not around but because no one was around. i have no father, atleast not in the truest sense of the word. each time a friend asks me how i feel about him, no one would believe me that I don't miss him. In fact, i am almost positive that i don't feel anything for him at all. is that mean? i don't know...

i was suppose to post a funny video today but apparently, Blogger is broken, or maybe it's my laptop... but i'll just assume it's Blogger's fault. haha. I'll be gone for a while to focus on my studies(it's harder to focus when you have no passion for what you do) and our upcoming projects for the org(this i have a passion for :P)... but knowing how i love blogging and reading my fave blogs, it will be hard for me to stay away from all these. in fact, I'll give it a week before i crack. until then... ingat :P

my favorite picture...
this is the most powerful i have ever felt,
like I'm on top of the world.
this is still from my Mt. Kabuyao adventure...

Estudyante Blues at ang cute na bata...

2010-06-19T09:58:00.001+08:00

http://www.bbc.co.uk/switch/surgery/advice/
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asar talaga... marunong talagang magparusa ang mundo. sabi nga nila, kung ano ang ibinahagi mo, iyon din ang ibabalik sayo. kaya kayo, wag niyo akong gagayahin ha?

we were given a concept paper due two days after the assignment was given. grabe, sobrang sakit na ng neurons ko sa subject na to, to think na dalawang linggo pa lang ang klase. since medyo tinamad at sobrang bilib sa sarili, i decided to do the paper the night before the submission, since paniwalang-paniwala ako na mas lumalabas ang creative juices ng utak ko kapag napi-pressure ako... wrong move! walang lumabas, kahit pa-utot lang na sentence, wala! kaya ang ending, hindi nanaman ako natulog. haaay... i was hoping na matatapos ko yung paper before the class starts pero hindi ako umabot sa oras kaya tuloy nagkaruon na ako ng absent mark ngayong sem. p*kening naman oh. Since nasasayangan ako dahil nag-effort din naman ako sa paper, kahit na bigyan na ng malaking deduction ang paper ko basta tanggapin lang niya, ayos na sa akin. guess what i found out? Pwede pa palang mag-pass ng paper even after class hours. Asar! kung alam ko lang, nakapasok pa sana ako at nagawa ko pa ng mas maayos ang paper ko. ay sus! grabe naman ang world! binato ko lang ng bato, in-armalite na ako. huhu. kaya kayo, wag niyo na hintayin ang deadline bago gawin ang papers ha? at siguraduhing nakikinig sa instructions para kapag pasahan na ay hindi ka nangangamot ng puwet(lalo na kung hindi mo naman puwet yun!)

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habang kumakain ako ng isaw sa may kanto, narinig ko mula sa isang maliit na cute na batang babae, "papa, isuot mo na itong jacket ko para hindi ka magkasakit." awww.... parang gusto ko tuloy pakyawin lahat ng tinda sa isawan para ibigay sa sweet at cute na bata. ang swerte naman nung tatay, at bilib ako sa kanya at maganda ang pagpapalaki sa bata. karapat-dapat siyang i-clap-clap! ang hindi dapat i-clap-clap? yung mga magulang nung bata sa India na hinayaang malulong ang cute na cute din nilang 2-year old baby sa sigarilyo. haayyy... sila ay dapat i-slap-slap! bad yun!!!

http://www.edupics.com/father-and-daughter-t10753.jpg

sa lahat ng mga tatay diyan, happy father's day sa inyo :P

1 inch bigger

2010-06-14T15:57:00.002+08:00

a random picture of the majestic view i've experienced
during my adventure in Mt. Kabuyao.

it has been a week since my last post. kung last week, emotionally exhausted ako, ngayon naman ay physically and mentally strained na ako. walang patawad ang mga profs. usually, tinatamad pa ang mga profs during the first week pero ngayon parang naghahabol sila ng oras. na-bwis*t kaya sila sa mga feedback namin sa kanila sa evaluation namin last sem? parang pinagsisihan ko tuloy na binagsak ko ang karamihan sa kanila sa evaluation. ayan tuloy, hindi na lang sila mabagsik na profs... mga monsters na sila gayon. haaayyy... Na-sampolan na nga ako agad ng isang prof sa pre-thesis course ko eh. Bilib daw siya sa napili kong topic kaso sobra daw akong excited dahil masyado na daw detailed ang sinulat ko. eh panu ba naman kasi sir, minimum of four pages ang hinihingi mo at ang instruction mo eh ibigay lang ang meaning ng topic na gusto mo. Paano kaya yun? Ayusin mo buhay mo ah. PS. kung sakaling blogger ka din pala sir, joke lang to ah. wag ka masyado seryoso, sige ka, lalo kang mapapanot niyan. hahaha. peace :P

Siyempre, hindi naman lahat ng back-to-school happenings sa akin ay puro p*kening. i got to see my friends again, i was excited about that. yung iba pa nga na mga sosyal na galing pa ng san francisco(pronounce it with a twang) namigay pa ng mga pasalubong. AYOS ang keychain at snickers bar, parang walang ganito sa Pinas. nyahaha. pero teka, parang ang laki ng snickers na gawa sa tate. nagulat nga ako eh, atleast an inch na mas malaki ang kanila kesa sa mga binibenta dito. asar naman mga ka-toto, talo nanaman tayo pagdating sa inches. wahaha.

too yummy to share

Another thing that we were ecstatic about was our friend being appointed as the new head of their fraternity. Ayos ah. Bigla nga ang mga pangyayari. Kaya pala hindi nagrereply ang talimutak(may term bang ganito?) nung araw na yun kasi hinahalal na pala siyang bagong head. Nung malaman namin, instant party agad sa bahay. siyempre, halos wala nang tulugan yun, buti na lang madami siyang gamit sa bahay, kulang na lang eh brip niya at para na siyang boarder sa bahay. hahaha. Congrats brother, talagang mapaninindigan na natin na hebigats ang barkada natin. Isa ang Sk chairman. Isa ang head ng Org. Isa ang head ng frat. at isa ang Lawyer. i am so proud of us guys...(parang tatay?) wahaha. Speaking of the lawyer, maraming salamat sa iyong libreng dinner nung isang araw. konting tiis na lang kuya, may bago ka na ring tsikot. pahiram ha?

Salamat sa lahat ng mga parekoy na patuloy na bumabalik at nakikibasa sa mga pangyayari sa buhay ng isang nightcrawler. malapit na palang mag-isang taon ang aking munting blog. what started out as a product of severe boredom has now become a part of my being. salamat sa pagiging parte ng buhay ko. ayos :P

Mr. Wordplay

2010-05-30T05:00:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since I have posted music in my blog so I figured that I'm going to do this right, and what better way to do that than sharing with you the music of a true musical genius. Since his debut in 2003, i have been a fan of his artistry and his ability to incorporate wonderful lyrics and slick guitar-playing in most of his songs. He is one of the few artists who are as good in live performances as in recording studio, sometimes even better. I only wish I could be as good as him... Hindi naman masyadong obvious na number 1 fan niya ako no? haha.

mga parekoy, musikero sundays is proud to present an artist who is on a league of his own. give it up for mr. wordplay himself, Jason Mraz.

You and I both

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

Hanep Pinoy

2010-05-28T00:29:00.001+08:00

i have never doubted the amount of talent the Filipino has... may it be singing, acting, or dancing, walang makapag-sasabing hindi natin kayang makipag-sabayan sa mga ibang lahi kaya nga proud na proud ako sa mga achievements ng mga kababayan natin both here and abroad. heto ang ilan sa mga nag-iwan ng marka sa international entertainment scene...

Lea Salonga - One of the first Filipinos who have tasted international fame in the entertainment field, Lea has become an icon and a testament to the fact that talent, beauty, brains, discipline, and a little bit of luck will bring you places, regardless of race and ethnicity. She first appeared on local shows and productions before bagging the biggest role of her career, Kim of Miss Saigon. After her stint on Miss Saigon, and winning a Tony award for her performance, she have recorded albums and went on to star on high profile broadway musicals like Cinderella and Les Miserables. Currently, she is working on a film and preparing for another concert.. Looks like Lea isn't in a hurry to retire just yet, unlike our other performing superstar, Lisa Macuja.

Lisa Macuja - Have single-handedly brought grace and shine back on the once dying art of Ballet in the Philippines. Being gifted with golden feet and graceful moves, Lisa proved that Filipinos can tiptoe their way to international stage. She was invited to perform in different countries but returned to her roots to teach ballet. She is currently happily married with kids...

Charice - Unlike Lisa Macuja, Charice Pempengco or simply Charice have just started her way up on the international ladder of fame. From being a runner-up on a local channel singing competition, Charice was noticed, when a fan posted her performance on youtube, by no less than ellen de generes. She was invited to the ellen show to perform and gave a performance to which ellen would only describe as "brilliant." More people got interested with Charice like David Foster and the Queen of all media herself, Oprah. After series of guestings, Charice is ready to dominate the international recording scene with her first international album. Recently, her single, "Pyramid" reached number 1 on the billboard dance charts and her self-titled album debuted on number 8 on bilboard 200, selling more than 43,000 copies. Looks like there's no way but up for this newcomer, just like this other relatively newcomer, rocker Arnel Pineda.

Arnel Pineda - this gritty rocker started his "Journey" as a frontman of a local band. After years of struggling with the band, our now famous rocker got lucky when a fan recorded his performance during a concert and posted it on youtube. Many were impressed with his vocals and luckily, one of them was the guitarist of the band Journey who was at the moment looking for a possible frontman for the band. After what seemed like a cinderella-ish moment for Arnel, he recorded the vocals for the comeback album of Journey and prepared for their comeback tour as well. The album went platinum and the concert tour became one of that year's top earning tours in US. Currently, Arnel is preparing for his second album with Journey and preparing for another concert tour with the band. From living on the streets to international stardom, not bad huh?

Nicole Scherzinger and Apl d Ap- both nicole and apl became famous when they joined their respective groups, Pussycat Dolls and Black Eyed Peas. Nicole is a half filipina who exploded in US when Pussycat Doll's first album sold 2 million copies and had a string of hits with the group. Apl or Allan Pineda in real life became famous after his group released their third album Elephunk, which became their breakout record. after elephunk, string of hits and more internationally successful albums came. Nicole is currently the winner of dancing with the stars and is rumored to be out of Pussycat Dolls while Apl is still enjoying his 'Peas success and is arguably the most successful Filipino in the entertainment field in US(3 chart-topping albums, multipple grammy recognitions, multi-million grossing concerts, and a string of chart-topping singles)

Ang dami na palang mga pinoy na nagpahanga at sumikat sa international scene ano? pero wag ka, may humahabol. Isang pinoy nanaman ang sumikat recently. Nag-guest siya sa popular series na Glee at ilang beses pa talaga siyang nakita dun. whops, teka lang, hindi si Charice ang tinutukoy ko, hindi raw totoo na magge-guest siya dun at saka yung tinutukoy ko ay nag-guest na talaga at pinalabas na. Ang nakaka-gulat pa nun, di naman siya tao! isa siyang, bubuyog...

Asar talaga yang bubuyog na yan.
inunahan pa akong mag-guest sa glee?
haha. Ayos ka jollibee, pa-burger ka naman jan.

photos taken from:http://nomnomclub.com/others/2010/jollibee-in-glee-tv-series/

and http://rlv.zcache.com/pinoy_pride_tshirt-p2353836249776438873wh7_400.jpg

panakip butas...

2010-05-26T10:45:00.001+08:00

Kahapon, nakita ko siyang naglalakad...
malungkot, nagiisa,
walang kasabay sa daang tinatahak.
Lumapit ako at nagtanong, "may problema?"
Bigla siyang ngumiti, sabay sabi ng
"masama lang ang araw ko."

Kanina, muli kaming nagtagpo,
tumabi ako at siya'y muling sinabayan.
Nakangiti na siya!
Sabi ko, "mukhang di na masama ang araw mo."
Lalong lumapad ang kanyang pagkakangiti, sabay sabi ng..
"Hindi na, nandito ka na eh. Di na ako malungkot, di na nagiisa."
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In one point or another, you'll need someone in your life... not only for comfort in trying times but you'll need someone who you can share your happiness with.

ps. huwag niyo nang masyadong pansinin ang kadramahan nitong post ko. Ang totoo niyan, matagal ko nang naisulat yan at gusto ko lang talagang takpan yung huli kong post na puro paa! hahaha. Speaking of paa, belated happy birthday sa aking ate. Hindi naman sa sinasabi kong mukha kang paa, amoy lang! hahaha. joke. Lambing ko lang sayo yan. Love you :P

photo from: http://i110.photobucket.com/albums/n94/snavenel
/istockphoto_798931_walking_together.jpg

chicken MASARAP at iba pa...

2010-05-24T01:05:00.002+08:00

hmmm... Yummy!!!

oops... i promised a friend i wouldn't post these on facebook, good thing i have my blog! wahaha. Gotcha!
*disclaimer: not my foot, totally his! i have bigger feet. *wink*

nightcrawler in jail

2010-05-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

bago pa kayo mag-isip ng kung anu-ano diyan, uunahan ko na kayo. hindi ako nagnakaw, pumatay, o nang-rape ng sinuman, hokey? sa maniwala kayo o sa hindi, kusa akong sumuko.. este pumasok ng kulangan. it wasn't easy for me at first, nagdadalawang isip pa nga ako kung tutuloy ako pero pikit-mata akong pumasok sa loob dahil na rin sa hiya ko sa aking uncle na ilang linggo kong kinulit para makasama sa kanyang volunteer work doon. i had to check the place out para malaman kung peaceful at safe ba na magsagawa ng "encounter" doon ang aming org. pagpasok namin ng kulungan, we had to surrender our valuables including our phones and cameras(meaning, no pics). naku, strike 1. kinabahan ako bigla, nagdalawang-isip tuloy akong iwan ang sasakyan. but we had to keep on moving so i shook off all my fears and went on. pagpasok namin sa hall, may mga naghihintay na sa aming mga tao. strike 2. hindi lang sila basta nakatingin kundi nakatitig talaga. lalo tuloy tumagaktak ang pawis ko at nagmukha nang black ang kanina'y gray na damit ko. i've never been so uncomfortable in my life, dahil sa pinaghalong init, kaba, and most especially because i am in an unfamiliar territory. i am pretty sure that i was about to leave when my uncle gave me a glance... a glance that for me meant an assurance of safety. and so i decided to force it through a bit more. the program began with a prayer and i was surprised with how cooperative they were and how much they were into what we have to offer them. then we went on and watched a film called "fireproof."

ok, segue muna ako dun sa film. sobra kasi akong nabanas dun sa asawa nung fireman. it was suppose to be an inspiring film but hell, i wanted them to break up. yung story kasi ay tungkol sa mag-asawang dumadaan sa pagsubok sa kanilang pagsasama, kaso yung babae ay nakikipag-flirt dun sa duktor during the process. haay... needless to say, nagkabalikan yung dalawa sa huli. the story is about rejection, acceptance, and finding a way rebuild relationships...

after the film, i noticed how deeply affected the inmates were and that most of them were crying or at the very least, teary-eyed. then it all dawned on me why. Rejection, Acceptance, and Starting Over... the three things that were either denied from them or they have been experiencing since their capture.. They have been through a lot outside but it never occurred to me how much more difficult it was for them behind prison bars. in an instant, it's as if i was beginning to feel what they were feeling. I mean, if we think about it, we were never really different from them. all of us are prisoners of our own insecurities, fantasies, of our own wrong doings.. and if there is one thing that makes them a lot luckier than us, it would be the fact that they have a chance to start things over, something that is commonly deprived even to the kindest individual. After watching the film, my uncle gave a short lecture on how we should live our lives and giving importance to things that really matter. it was like seeing lives being changed in an instant. they were very appreciative and when we were about to leave, each one of them approached us and gave thanks for giving time to be with them, it wasn't really a big deal but to some it meant the world to them. i guess it wasn't really the film, or the lecture, but i believe it was more for believing in their capacity to change and instilling in them the fact that their is life after all these... we left the jail with smiles on our faces and "kurot" in our hearts.

sa sabado, babalik kami doon to give more help to these people who have been forgotten by most of our fellow kababayans. Hindi ko sinasabing tama ang lahat ng naging desisyon nila sa buhay but i believe that everyone is entitled to a second chance, and another after that, and another after that... who are we to deny a person of a chance to redeem himself, right? and besides, kailangan na rin ng kotse ng cleaning, they give the best free carwash in town! haha. ganun pala dun, free ang carwash pag nagustuhan ka nila :P

bakit nakakatawa ang eleksyon...

2010-05-11T17:01:00.003+08:00

kumusta mga parekoy? i hope lahat tayo ay naka-boto... as we all know by now, Noynoy is the "president in waiting" as his lead against his closest competitor, Joseph Estrada, is a Big 5 million votes. it is a victory of sorts, even if i voted for green(which is in a distant 4th place), especially when considering the fact that his closest competitor is Joseph Estrada(the horror). I'd rather have Noynoy as the president than have a "joke" seated at the palace for the next six years... and thank God that the other orange didn't win as well.

Medyo nahulaan ko na rin, even before the election proper, that yellow would win the elections. even so, i voted for green as it would have felt wrong voting for someone just because he is the popular candidate or he is the sure "winner." i have voted for the sole purpose of believing in the change that this certain candidate could bring, and as i look at this ink on my finger, it is not defeat that i see, but rater a victory on raising my voice as to who i believe would be the best leader and hope that all my fellow Filipinos have done, with dignity, the same thing. i applaude Gibo for giving a good fight and for not engaging in dirty tactics during the campaign. i have a feeling that we'll see him in the next elections. but for now, congrats to President Benigno Aquino III. by the way, Jejomar Binay currently leads the vice-presidential race. i voted for him too...

parang ube jam lang ah. hehe.
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On a different note, the elections brought in as many laughs as it did with controversies. what i enjoyed the most are the parodies made with the campaign ads on tv. i laughed so hard when i watched this spoof of villar's campaign ad with his senatoriables...

haha... nakakatawa talaga ang eleksyon! by the way, watch out for gwen pimentel's part.. it's f*ckin' genius. wahaha.

kuwentong ewan lang

2010-05-08T11:50:00.000+08:00

nasa computer shop ako nung isang araw... i was hoping na mapapasa ko yung paper ko that day mismo kasi isang source na lang naman iyong kailangan ko para matapos yon. kaso, p*kening na net shop yan! lahat yata ng computers nila ay defective! ilang beses ako nagpalipat-lipat ng computers pero lahat may topak! kaya ang ending, hindi ko rin napasa nung araw na yun ang paper ko. late tuloy! pero hindi yun ang kuwentong ewan dun... habang namumroblema ako sa paper ko, may mga kulokoy na pumasok ng netshop. astig ang usapan nila nung una...

kulokoy1: pare, ang sarap talagang mag-gym.
kulokoy2: oo nga, itinaas ko na nga ng 5 kilo yung binubuhat ko eh saka dinagdagan ko rin ng repiititions...

wow naman... siyempre napahiya naman daw ako... parang gusto ko na din tuloy bumalik ng gym para mawala mga numumuong fats sa katawan ko kaso...

kulokoy3: huy, panuorin niyo to o. astig.
kulokoy1: oo nga no, kaya ko rin yan eh(sumayaw ng todo)...
kulokoy2: hindi mo naman gaya pare eh... mas kaya ko yan eh. ganito oh(hindi nagpatalo!)

hulaan niyo kung ano pinapabuod nila? sirit na?

http://pop.ology.com/files/2008/11/beyonce-justin-snl-21.jpg

apparently, body-builders and single ladies don't go together. ang sagwang tignan! nyahaha. mukha silang ewan!
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heto pa ang isang ewan.. malapit na ang eleksiyon! hanggang ngayon, undecided pa rin ako. pumasok na nga sa isip ko na huwag na lang bumoto. parang ang lagay kasi ngayon, i have to choose the least evil... pero napagisip-isip ko rin na sayang ang boto ko. sabi nga nila, every vote counts at ang hindi bumoto ay walang karapatang mag-reklamo! at dahil reklamador ako, bu-boto ako. at dahil ayaw kong sabihin niyo na nangangampanya ako dito, hindi ko na sasabihin na si Gibo ang iboboto kong presidente. hehe...

bumoto tayo mga parekoy... siguro naman, nagtanda na tayo no?

http://papiforpresident.files.wordpress.com/2009/10/erap-mugshot.jpg

kitakits sa eleksiyon mga parekoy.. huwag magpapa-ewan ah :P

samu't saring kuwento

2010-04-27T22:06:00.001+08:00

kumusta mga parekoy? bago pa ako atakehin ng katamaran, magkukwento na ako. ang dami ko kasi appointments(aka lakwatsa) nitong mga huling araw kaya medyo nawala ako ng panandalian sa mundo ng blogosperyo. sa dami ng mga nangyari, parang ang hirap balikan lahat ah kaya ninilay-nilayin ko na lang ng bahagya hanggang sa maalala ko lahat. kaya sa mga naka-miss at na-bw*sit sa mga mala-"nobela" kong mga kuwento, heto na ako ulit... heto na ang mga samu't saring kuwento
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mahilig ba kayong magbasa ng mga horoscopes? hindi ba madalas pa ngang ginagawang segments yun sa mga programa sa tv? nakaka-mangha nga kung minsan kasi parang totoong-totoo yung mga nakalagay sa horoscopes na napapanuod ko sa tv... kumbaga eh parang tinitignan pa nila ang mga bitwin, pinagaaralang mabuti kung ano ang epekto nito sa takbo ng buhay ng mga tao. p*kening! wala palang katotohanan lahat yan. paano ko nalaman? eh kasi naman, nagi-intern yung kaibigan ko sa isang programa at siya ang inatasang gumawa ng horoscope para i-ere kinabukasan. take note, "gumawa!" ibig sabihin, ka ek-ekan lang pala nila ang mga yun. wahaha... kung trip nilang sabihin na yayaman ka ngayong araw, eh di maniniwala ka naman! at heto pa ang matindi, tinulungan ko pang gumawa ang kaibigan ko ng mga horoscope na yan. at dahil pagkakataon ko nang makaganti.. este makapagsulat ng kapalaran ng tao, ginalingan ko na. at ito ang the best: LIBRA- su-swertehin ka ngayong araw sa iyong buhay pag-ibig. Ipagpatuloy lang ang magandang despusisyon sa buhay at tuloy-tuloy ang pagpasok ng suwerte sa iyong buhay. Magandang magsimula ng negosyo bago matapos ang linggo at tiyak na magtatagumpay ito. kaya sa lahat ng mga librans jan, you. are. welcome. hehe

this used to be my fave thing in the boarding house.. ang sabi, umikot ng isang beses at ituro ang kapalaran! kaso na-realize ko na baka ka ek-ekan rin lang to ng sinong bugoy jan kaya wa epek na sa akin... hmpft...
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few days ago, lumabas kmi ng mga barkada ko mula pa nung highschool. Konti lang kaming nagpunta, lima lang pero ayos pa rin. nag take-out kami ng pagkain sa Jobee(hayup yung isang blogger jan... naalala ko tuloy mga kuwento niya tungkol sa jobee) at dumiretso ng beach. P*kening ulit, feeling ko naging drayber ako nung araw na yun, hindi lang dahil ako yung nagda-drayb kundi dahil magkarelasyon pa tong mga kasama ko. at kailan pa naging batas na magdala ng ka-relasyon sa reunion? haha. Anyway, ang saraaaaaaaap mag-picninc sa beach lalo na pag gabi kasi ang sarap ng hangin. pagkatapos naming lumamon at lumibot sa beach, nag-kalesa muna kami at pumunta kami ng coffeeshop para magkape. weird thing was meron ding grupo na nagre-reunion dun... naisip namin, would we be like those people 25 years from now? they seem successful and well cultured... basta ang akin lang... wag lang ako mapanot ok na ako! haha.

ang mahal ng nachos sa coffeehouse.. mura lang naman ang tinadtad na kamatis at eden cheese ah... hay naku, harapang hold-upan na yan!
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isa sa mga bagay na natutunan ko sa buhay kolehiyo ay ang katotohanan na hindi lahat ng natutunan mo sa hayskul ay puwede mong i-apply sa college. for example, sa hayskul, kapag sinabi mong may group study ka dahil kailangan mong magreview para sa exam kinabukasan, almost 100% ay talagang totoo yun. sa kolehiyo kapag sinabi mong may group study ka, ibig sabihin nun ay mag happy-happy at bahala na si batman sa exam kinabukasan. haha... mga &*%#& ang study group ko.. tinulugan ako! at dahil mabait akong nilalang, hinayaan ko na sila...

o di ba? siyempre kailangan maka-ganti kahit papano.. wahahaha!
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nakaka-miss talagang magsulat lalo na ang magbasa ng mga blogs ng mga paborito kong mga echosero.. este manunulat pala diyan. simple lang naman nagpapangiti sa akin dito... ang makapag-sulat, makapag-basa, at maka-hanap ng mga litratong kagaya nito

haha... akalain mo yun, magkamag-anak pala sila?

iskul bukol

2010-04-14T22:49:00.002+08:00

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kumusta mga parekoy? haha. di ko ata mapanindigan na magsulat ng marami ngayong summer ah. alam ko marami pa akong mga utang na kwento sa inyo pero sa susunod na lang muna ang mga yun ha? kapag naproseso na ng utak ko ang ilang mga pangyayari(in short, pag sinipag. hehe) sa ngayon, i'm taking a summer class. it's a little weird that i'm actually excited for school. hay... mas mabuti na siguro yun kesa mabagot sa bahay. hehe. nakalipat na nga pala ako ng boarding house and i'm having a blast with my new housemates. we cook, we play cards, we have dvd marathons.. and the best part is, tinuruan nila akong mag-BullSh*t! hehe. at dahil mejo hindi naman ganun ka-busy ang schedule namin sa school, my buddy and i decided to go back into taekwondo training. actually kanina lang yun so this is actually a big day for us. una, kasi it's our first day back in training. pangalawa, kasi baka ito na rin yung huli. tinamaan ba naman yung "kaligayahan" ko at bali pa yata ang buto ko as of this moment. hehe. at dahil jan, kailangan ko na sigurong matulog ng maaga dahil may pasok pa ako bukas. pagpasensyahan niyo na muna ang nightcrawler kung medyo matipid ako ngayon sa kuwento ha? babawi ako sa susunod, promise! kahit ilang nobela pa! hehe.

Kwentong de Papel

2010-04-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

kumusta mga parekoy? isang linggo din akong hindi nakapag-sulat. ewan ko nga ba kung bakit. maraming beses kong sinubukan na magsulat ng bagong entry nitong mga nakaraang araw pero wala talaga eh. Hanggang titig na lang ako sa monitor. siguro talagang nasanay lang ako na sa laptop ko ako gumagawa ng mga entries ko. hindi rin nakatulong na ilang araw na akong may sakit(nagpapa-awa?) kaya halos puro tulog, kain, at pagbabasa(totoo na ito, promise!) ang inatupag ko nitong mga huling araw. siyempre, tulad ng dati, pinaka na-enjoy ko ang libro ni Bob Ong.

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I'm assuming na kilala niyo si Bob Ong dahil kung hindi... Friendship OVER! joke lang. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang meron si Bob(close kami?). Kung babasahin mo kasi ang kanyang mga likha, mapapansin mong hindi siya masyadong magaling sa aspetong teknikal na tagalay ng ibang mga tanyag na manunulat. Hindi rin naman siya magaling mag-english at kung papansining maigi, magulo siya kung magkwento. walang continuity kumbaga. pero sa likod ng mga kakulangang ito, marami ang mga humahanga sa kanyang mga likha. marami ang nakitawa sa mga kapalpakan niya, naki-simpatya sa mga kadramahan "kuno" niya, at marami rin ang natakot kay ms. Tigang(kung di mo siya kilala, huwag mo na siyang kilalanin! haha). Bakit nga ba? Bakit sa dinami-rami ng mga magagaling na manunulat ay siya ang isa sa naging peyborit ko? Siguro dahil sa tuwing binabasa ko ang mga sinulat niya, nakakaramdam ako ng sense of familiarity. ang kanyang mga kwento ay kwento ng isang ordinaryong "Juan" na puwedeng mangyari sa iyo o sa akin. Ipinapa-alala niya sa atin ang tunay na halaga ng pagsulat, at iyon ay ang maipa-abot sa malawak na sektor ng lipunan, ke mayaman o mahirap, na sa bawat sulok na maaabot ng tanaw ng ating mga mata ay may kwento. Kwentong maaring kapulutan ng aral, saya, at iba't iba pang emosyon na hindi kayang ilabas ng diploma sa eskuwelahan o ang kakayahang teknikal ng isang manunulat(Siya lang ata ang kilala kong manunulat na kayang maka-buo ng isang libro gamit ang mga pakikipagsapalaran niya sa mga ipis, marvn at jolina, at kay ms. Tigang. o ha?). ang kanyang pinaka mabisang sandata? PUSO! Ipinapapaalala niya na ang bawat isa sa atin ay may kakayahang maging manunulat. Kung paggising mo sa umaga ay wala kang ibang nais gawin kundi ang sumulat, isa kang manunulat. Kung masaya ka sa pagbabahagi ng saluobin mo sa pamamagitan ng tinta ng bolpen o pagtipa sa computer, manunulat ka. At kung sa bawat armchair, dingding, lamesa, pader, at pintuan ay hindi mo mapigilang sumulat, isa kang Vandal! pasaway na mamayan! pero writer pa rin! hehe.

Bakit kwentong de papel ang title ng post na ito? Eh kasi sinulat ko muna sa papel bago ko tinipa sa computer ang post na ito. hehe. walang basagan ng trip , ' )

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GLW/GLW112/side-profile-boy_~gwil11301.jpg

nakaka-miss din pala. akalain mo?

2010-04-01T02:15:00.001+08:00

totoo talaga ang kasabihan na "we are always after what we don't have. and when we finally get it, we always seem to be wanting something else." grabe. i've been so busy these past few weeks na nakalimutan ko na yata kung papano ang magpahinga. it has been 5 days of rest and now, my body seems to be missing stress! haha. akalain mo yun? well, proven naman na kailangan din ng stressors sa buhay ng isang tao but i always thought that i have had enough stress to last me a whole year. pero hindi rin pala. as much as i hate to admit it, namimiss ko rin talaga ang school. i miss doing papers, the long hours of studying at ang mga nakaka-iyak na exams ng mga prof na hindi mo alam kung saan nila pinag-kukuha. it has been five days since my vacation started pero bakit sa tingin ko, i've had enough? at dahil matagal-tagal na rin ako hindi nagku-kuwento ng mahaba-haba, pagbigyan niyo na ako. umihi na mga ineng. kumuha na ng chips mga parekoy. heto na ang isa nanamang "nobela."

nung unang araw ng bakasyon ko, sabado yun, i went to san fabian with two friends/orgmates para i-check yung lugar para sa fr kinabukasan. siyempre pinili namin ang pinaka-dulo para walang istorbo. lubog na ang araw nung matapos kami. pauwi na sana kami kaso meron din pala kaming org mate na malapit lang dun sa beach na naghihintay ng mga kasama niya para sa kanilang consti reading(i'm not sure kung allowed akong sabihin pero di naman niya mababasa to, hehe) dahil meron silang new set of officers sa student council. since wala pa ang mga kasama niya, we decided na maghintay sa mga kasamahan niya. buti na lang at may videoke dun at puro musikero(ahem) kami kaya solve na kami. nang maubusan kami ng limang piso(ang mahal pala! limang piso kada isang kanta), naka-kanta na lang kami sa kabilang cottage. pag nagpapatugtog sila, sinasabayan nalang namin! haha. iyan ang tinatawag na wais, in other words, no more coins! haha. nang magsidatingan ang kasamahan ng orgmate namin, siyempre umalis na rin kami. at talagang naghapi-hapi pa kami at sa likod ng truck kami sumakay pauwi! naghanap pa kami ng bukas na kainan dahil sarado na halos lahat ng kainan nung mga oras na yun. nang matapos kami kumain sa jobee(naalala ko tuloy mga kwento ni pareng drake), nakipag-kulitan pa kami sa isa pa naming kaibigan na papunta na ng states na sobrang maganda, mabait at hulog ng langit(halata bang madami akong pinag-bilin? haha). madaling umaga na nang maka-balik ako ng bahay, may kasama pang barkada dahil gusto daw niyang makusap(in other words, maka-landian) ang kanyang ex via internet. haha. kasi naman, kung mahal mo balikan mo! oops, buti na lang di niya nababasa to. just in case, peace tayo brother! haha.

photo taken from http://www.psychologytoday.com/files/u45/Internet_addiction.jpg

nung pangalawang araw naman, mas naging busy ang dakilang nightcrawler. araw na ng fr kaya siyempre, todo ang mga gawain namin ng araw na yun. siyempre, kahit na gaano kadaldal ang nightcrawler, di ko pwedeng sabihin sa inyo ang mga pinaggagagawa namin. bawal yun no!(pilitin niyo muna ako, hehe). anyway, congrats pala sa apat na bagong miyembro ng org namin. sana'y mahalin ang org at wag pasakitin ang ulo ko ha? teka, bakit nga ba ako nagmemessage sa inyo dito? wahaha. pagkatapos nun, pumunta pa kami ng birthday ng isa naming orgmate at nagliw-aliw pa kami sa ibang lugar. masaya talaga pag may dalang sasakyan, basta hindi lang iyo. mahirap maglinis! wahaha. masaya na sana ang tapos ng araw kaso bigla ako tinawagan ni mama. nasa ospital pala si uncle kaya kinailangan kong pumunta ng ospital para tignan ang kanyang kalagayan. -update: naka-uwi na siya. medyo nangayayat pero atleast, maayos na siya.

nung ikatlong araw naman, natulog lang ako ng buong araw. bukod sa pagtulog, nanuod ako ng showtime at ang paborito ng ate ko na wowowee. haha. puwede bang tanggalin na si willie? mukhang di na rin siya nageenjoy sa ginagawa niya eh. hehe. nagbasa rin ako ng kaunti(ok, this is a lie, ayoko lang isipin niyo na patabaing baboy ako! haha) at nag-check ng mga emails. ito na siguro yung pahingang tinatawag nila. haha

nung ika-apat na araw, dito ko na talaga naramdaman ang pagka-bagot. sobra nang nasanay sa routine at stress ng paghiging estudyante ang katawan ko kaya medyo nahihirapan na rin ako na puro pahinga(pwede palang mangyari to? haha) kaya ang ginawa ko, ikinain ko na lang ang frustrations ko. iyon talaga ng ayaw ok sa sarili ko, kapag frustrated ako, kumakain ako o natutulog. ang kaibahan nga lang, nung di pa tapos ang sem, walang panahon para kumain at matulo dahil hindi pa tapos ang isang problema, may kasunod na agad. ngayon naman, ang problema ko ay walang pinoprublema! haha

kanina, ika-limang araw ng bakasyon ko, di na rin ako naka-tiis. i had to get out of the house kaya nanuod kami ni ate ng pelikulang how to train your dragon. maganda naman ang pelikula, although it lacked the disney touch. hindi kasi character driven ang story, mejo hindi masiyado na-establish kung papaano naging close si hiccup(bidang lalake) at toothless(dragon). but the visuals were great, in par with the previous dreamworks movies, even good enough to be compared with the other disney/pixar films. over-all, i'm giving it a B+. pagkatapos naming manuod ng movie, umattend kami ng birthday celebration ng pinsan ko. another reunion of our clan ang naganap at nagbabalak pa silang magpagudpod bukas kaso di kami sasama. may iba yatang plano sina mama. i'm hoping for tagaytay. please, kahit saan wag lang baguio! utang na loob. di talaga ako sasama. magkukulong na lang ako sa bahay. haha

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grabe, ito na yata ang pinaka-mahaba kong post, parang kasing haba na to ng mga posts ni parang drake ah. hehe. peace tayo. anyway, madami pa akong kuwento sa inyo pero sa susunod na. di ko pa kasi magamit ang laptop ko, naiwan ko kasi sa boarding house iyong charger(excited kasi umuwi eh. hehe) ilan sa mga iku-kuwento ko pa sa inyo ay isang milestone sa aking "career," awards night, isang nakakadiring kuwento at kuwentong puyatan.

why i hate politics

2010-03-30T23:54:00.003+08:00

just found out that the ampatuans' case of rebellion was trashed. in my recollection, there are only two times i was ashamed of being a Filipino. First, when the ampatuans were charged of rebellion instead of murder. the second time, just now. this just proves that justice doesn't exist in our country. oh wait, it does... if you are affiliated with the first family. no wonder you see ghosts in your cell mr. ampatuan. ghosts of your lies, of your victims.

hindi ako aktibista. isa akong mamamayang sukang-suka sa bulok na sistema(kuno) ng pamahalaan. ang rason nila kung bakit na-dismiss ang kaso? lack of evidence. that's crap! ano pa ba ang ebidensyang kailangan nila? bato na lang ang hindi masuka sa karumal-dumal na hitsura ng mga pinaslang. hindi bobo ang mga tao.

sa darating na eleksyon, wag natin hayaang maulit ang mga pagkakamali natin. maging mapanuri, maging kritikal. it may be our last chance for change...

stripped down

2010-03-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

kung ikaw ang tatanungin, are you willing to let go of the one thing that you worked hard for, for so many years, to get the one thing that you know will finally make you genuinely happy? minsan kasi, napapa-isip ako kung tama ba tong ginagawa ko? am i making myself happy as much as i am making them? ayokong dumating sa panahon na mare-realize ko na lang na maraming panahon na pala ang nasayang sa kaiisip ng sagot. pagod na kasi ako. i'm tired of pleasing people, of trying to be strong for everyone when the truth is, i'm the one who is breaking down. when time comes na hindi ko na talaga kaya, meron kayang sasalo sa akin?

pasensiya na sa kadramahan...

on eviction and new beginnings...

2010-03-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

nanunuod ka ba ng pbb? parating inaabangan ang araw ng eviction. marami ang nagtatalo kung sino ba ang karapat-dapat na umalis o manatili sa bahay. isipin mo ang feeling ng mga housemates sa tuwing binibitin sila ni toni sa resulta ng botohan... nakakatakot hindi ba? idagdag mo pa diyan ang ma-awtoridad na boses ni Big Brother, complete torture ang tawag dun. hehe. kaya ayaw ko talagang manuod ng mga ganyang palabas, nakaka-stress. kaya laking gulat ko nang may maganap na eviction dito sa sarili naming boarding house.kulang na lang ng maraming cameras sa bahay at parang big brother na talaga. the similarities are uncanny... 16 housemates, one house, a rule book, and big brother(in our case, a big, domineering landlady.) kinausap ba naman kami nang masinsinan at sinabing kailangan na naming umalis ng bahay kasi di na niya kami kayang lahat. naku po... talo pa niya si big brother... atleast si kuya, pa-isa-isa ang eviction. sa land-lady namin, one time, Big time! at forced eviction pa. sa totoo lang, we shouldn't be surprised kasi mejo matagal na ring hindi maganda ang relasyon naming mga boarders sa kanya. it's better to leave when we still have respect for each other... kaysa umalis kaming nagmumurahan. hay buhay... sabi nga nila... good or bad, it's better to have imparted something on someone 'coz it means you exist.

heto pa ang malupit na kuwento... sa tingin ko talaga ay may sa-pusa ako. muntik nanaman kasi ako mamatay noong nakaraang linggo. habang ako ay palabas ng eskuwelahan at patawid na ng kalsada, biglang may humarurot na sasakayan. kaunti na lang, deds na sana ako. mabuti na lang at alerto ang kaibigan kong si jk(siya rin yung takot mag-donate ng dugo, hehe) at tinulak niya ako para maka-iwas sa sasakyan. handa na sana kaming rumesbak sa nagmamaneho ng sasakyan kaso nagulat na lang kami ng babae pala yung may hawak ng manebela... at hindi lang basta babae kundi magandang babae. siyempre, gumana naman ang pagka-gentleman namin at sinabihan ang magandang binibini na mag-ingat sa pagmamaneho lalo na at nasa tama naman kaming tawiran. hay... buti na lang talaga at malakas ako sa itaas at hindi ako pinababayaan. kaya ang lesson diyan, don't talk when your mouth is full... este live today as if it is your last pala. hehe...

naku po... parang di na talaga magagamot itong insomnia ko mga parekoy... may sarili na nga raw comforter ang eyebags ko eh. hehe. subukan ko na munang matulog at may pasok pa ako mamaya. pasensya na at mejo wala sa tamang ulirat ang dakilang nightcrawler. good morning sa lahat, ingat!(ala john lloyd!)

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there will be BLOOD

2010-03-11T18:36:00.003+08:00

nightcrawler donates blood...

teka, di ako yan. that's my good buddy jk, na sobrang tumaas ang blood pressure dahil kinabahan sa pag-donate ng dugo(haha, buti na lang di niya alam na nilalaglag ko siya!)

kung nagtataka kayo, yup, i've always been afraid of needles. halos magback-out pa nga ako sa sobrang nerbiyos(pero di ako nagpahalata siyempre. hehe) what convinced me to finally do it is yung nurse. litanyahan ka ba naman nang "kapalit ng ilang segundong sakit ng karayom ay ang ginhawa ng isang taong ilang buwan o taon nang naghihirap. ilang minuto ka lang magsasakripsisyo kapalit ng karagdagang taon na maidadagdag sa buhay ng ibang tao..." Aba siyempre, may puso naman ang nightcrawler no. kahit halos mamutla na ako sa nerbiyos eh nagfill-up na ako ng form, nagpatimbang(ang bigat ko na pala), at nagpa-turok na. siyempre, naka-tulong din na mala-diwata ang nurse. hehe. kaya ang ending...

siyempre di na ako nagpa-pic kasama ang dugong dinonate ko, mukha daw kasi akong tinakasan ng kulay pagkatapos. haha. di rin naka-tulong na naka-ilang tusok muna sila sa akin bago nila mahanap ang nagtatago kong vein. haha

donate blood and save a life... sakay na... este tara na at magdonate :P

o
mas gusto mong
siya
ang makinabang sa
dugo mo?

photo taken from photos.travellerspoint.com

are we seeing another arnel pineda?

2010-03-08T11:21:00.000+08:00

what the? i've been searching for cool covers on youtube and i found this video of a contestant from Pilinas Got talent. i saw this particular performance on tv and i was amazed with the raw natural talent he has. i even made a prediction that he'll be the next arnel pineda. seems like i got one right as this video has reached a million views on youtube. are we seeing the next youtube sensation? come on ellen, come on oprah! you want talent? this kid definitely got the talent.

by the way, his humility makes me want to root for him more. but no excuses, this kid is the one to beat. mga parekoy, all ears on Jovit Baldivino...

is Queen still looking for a vocalist?

numb3rs

2010-03-07T16:45:00.001+08:00

i've been reading the magazine part of Philippine Daily Inquirer at na-aliw ako dun sa numbers thing, the one where a particular number denotes a year of an important event or number of times you have farted in a day. Dahil likas na sa akin ang maging gaya-gaya at inggitero, I've decided to make one of my own. may konting pagkaka-iba naman para di masiyadong makasalanan ang nightcrawler! haha.

numb3rs:
10 the number of years i gave myself to live life before settling down
9 number of times i've been asked if i was a virgin and they didn't believe me
8 number of "monays" i want to have in my abs(only seven more to go! haha.)
7 the record number of days i went on without a bath
6 the number of phones i lost/have broken(apparently, i repel technology)
5 times i change my shirt before i leave the house
4 number of times in a week that a stranger comes up to me to tell me I look like someone they know(apparently, i have a very generic face... this s*cks)
3 the least number of lies we tell in a day(according to reader's digest)
2 number of girls that have broken my heart(the last one doesn't count... i broke hers T_T)
1 the surprise you'll get from the nightcrawler before the month ends. Abangan...

*photo taken from www.westga.edu

the Happenings

2010-03-02T16:15:00.003+08:00

Nope, it's not a review of the film directed by m.night Shyamalan, which sucked by the way. haha. gusto ko lang ikuwento sa inyo ang mga weird happenings sa akin lately. don't worry, hindi pa ito nobela. saka ko na kayo ibo-bore sa mga sangkatutak kong kuwento. patikim muna...

Naniniwala ba kayo sa mga anghel? marami na kasi akong naririning na mga kuwento na ang bawat isang tao ay may anghel de la guwardya(tama ba spelling ko?) ako kasi, parang may anghel na tumulong sa akin kaninang madaling araw. i didn't really see an actual angel(wish ko lang) but i think nagparamdam siya sa panaginip ko. you see, i was suppose to pass this paper on ecological ethics last friday... ang kaso, hindi ko siya magawa. don't get me wrong, i tried. i mean, i have all the resources- books and internet sources, pero parang wala talagang ma-process utak ko. i really needed that paper dahil hanging by two fingers ako sa subject na yun. haha. anyway... kaninang madaling araw, i tried to do it pero wala pa rin talaga. tapos, nka-idlip ako. nung paggising ko, bigla na lang alam ko na ang gagawin and i clearly remember na sa panaginip ko eh ganun na ganun ang ginagawa ko. the way i see it, it could only be two things... either i'm making too much of nothing or i'm right on the money. eh sa gusto kong may nakita akong anghel eh, bakit ba? wahaha. AMEN!

heto pa ang isang hapening na hindi ko kinaya. it happened last week. you'll be amazed with how technology can be really fascinating. i was bored kaya tinype ko ang buo kong pangalan, Policarpio Macatangay(not my real name. hehe) sa google and found some fascinating stuff. apparently, everyone who was named Policarpio Macatangay is an achiever. May award winning director, actor, lawyer, and celebrated writer(ano daw? haha) anyway, hindi naman talaga tungkol dun ang kuwento ko... nagbibigay lang ako ng proof na lahat talaga ng taong may pangalang Policarpio Macatangay ay may patutunguhan. haha. yung totoong kuwento ko kasi ay may halong discovery... naks. may kakilala kasi ako sa school na tuwing itinutukso sa akin ay kulang na lang eh tumirik ang mata sa pagtanggi. well apparently, she owns a blog na nadiscover ko nga recently dahil sa pag-tipa ng pangalan ko sa google. haha. bakit nag-appear ang blog niya? eh kasi naman, madalas pala akong topic sa posts niya. wahaha. and apparently, she has a crush on me. haha. kaya recently, pagnagkaka-salubong kami... i always have a smile on my face. not only because natural na sa akin yun(asus) kundi may hawak na akong alas sa kanya. wahaha. what do you think? should i be naughty?...

guess who?

2010-02-25T18:55:00.001+08:00

kumusta mga parekoy? lahat ng naka-miss sa akin, raise your right hand... then twist it, fold it, and break it in two, then smile. GRABE naman. ang tamad niyo. sige na nga, if you missed me, smile na lang. Ayan, sabi ko na nga ba, miss niyo rin ako eh. hehe. pakipot ka pa. so, how is you? it has been a while since i've had enough libog, or gigil if you will, para makapag-blog ng matino.. not even enough gigil to actually write one. haaay... well, let's not dwell on the past and focus on now, I'm back baby. sa pito kong fans jan(yup, i'm talking about you pareng jag and drake. jag counts as 3 and drake counts as 4, depende kung sino mas mabigat. haha.), kumusta kayo? i am yet to visit your blogs and i'll be there soon. madami ako ikukuwento sa inyo pero di muna ngayon... uunti-untihin ko na lang sa inyo in the posts to come.

sa ngayon, i want to talk about IDOL. yup, nightcrawler's an idol "enthusiast"(i'm not even sure if i'm using the word right. haha) I've been following the show "religiously" since season 3 and i have got to say, the talent this year is crazy, in a good way though. if you have been following since the start of this season, i'm sure you'll agree with me that the boys have it this year, again. And watch out for this guy. reminds me of allen(with the guitars and all), gokey(similar voice and freakishly similar looks), and lambert(ability to creatively interpret songs). My money's on him this year.

*oh, and by the way, i know it's a little late but Happy Valentines day

on the crossroads...

2010-01-25T20:12:00.004+08:00

surprised? me too. sa totoo lang, wala talaga akong planong magsulat ng entry ngayon, or any time soon for that matter. gusto ko sana kasing magpahinga, not just from blogging but from everything, from the stressful and high demands of acads, sa pressure of heading an org, sa mga expectations ng pamilya at ng mga kaibigan. why am i not happy? naramdaman mo na ba yun? something's missing at hindi ko mahanap kung ano yun. i have heard of people experiencing these things but d*mn, they are in their late adult life. i shouldn't be worrying about these kind of things. i should be out there, enjoying life and experiencing what the world has to offer.
i don't know...
i am lost...
please.. find me.

salamat sa lahat ng patuloy na nagbabasa ng aking blog. at first, it felt weird for me to be so open about my life sa blog na ito, sa inyo. pero na-realize ko, strangers make the best confidant. why? strangers won't judge, and even if they did, you won't care so much.
sa aking mga parekoy at virtual friends, salamat. you keep me sane. i'll be in touch with you soon. give me a couple of days to snap out of it.

why?

2010-01-12T00:55:00.001+08:00

why not?

wait for you

2010-01-03T22:44:00.004+08:00

sometimes love is over-rated...
there are no music waiting for playback each time you have a moment with someone,
no fireworks each time you kiss,
and i'd be damned if it always ends in happily ever-after.

but wouldn't you give anything just to find "the one?"
the one person who would make you believe in happy endings...
the one person who can make your heart beat faster and slower at the same time...
the one person who you could stare at each day and make you believe that maybe "happily ever after" does exist and that fantasy is just a step away from reality?

musikero sundays is proud to present a love song like no other. interpreted by a relatively unknown singer who i can only describe as a diamond in the rough. ladies and gentlemen, i give you robbie navarro with his version of wait for you

video courtesy of mobsycoi

wait for you

I've never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they
Keep runnin' down my face
Why did you turn away

[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta me feeling crazy
(crazy)
How can you walk away
(When)
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just, just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie
What you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

I'll be waiting...

2010 is my year... deal with it!

2010-01-01T03:21:00.000+08:00

oh yeah. 2009 has finally ended and gave way for my year... 2010. why, you ask? well.. why not? i just kicked 2009's *ss and i'm hungry for more(evil laugh with a hint of naughty.) haha. so, to officially kick off my year, i'm listing down 5 things i'm leaving behind and 5 things i'm keeping for that *ss-kicking i'm talking about.

i am leaving...
1)laziness... rest in peace you sick b*stard.
2)binge eating... not good for my tummy, looks, and apparently my wallet.
3)pornograpy... ok, maybe not totally. baby steps people!
4)poor hygiene... the less you know, the better. haha.
5)binge eating... oh, did i already list it? then this one is for emphasis! haha

i am keeping...
1)my smile... sometimes a great smile can take you places, it can even save your *ss at times. i got references to prove it! haha
2)innocence of youth... an individual is happiest in his early childhood. why? three words people... innocence. diapers. barney!
3)music... it makes the people, come together. yeah.
4)my blog... corny as it may sound, my blog and my alter-ego nightcrawler has given me so much pleasure and i'm quite sure, at one point, it saved me from total insanity.
5)my family and friends... it's always nice to know that you're back is covered. thanks guys.

to everyone who has been a part of my 2009, thank you. i'm inviting you again this year as a new saga begins.

oh, and by the way, our outreach program was a success. sorry i can't post any pictures as we were asked not to. thank you to all the generous people who have supported our worthy cause and may the joy and giving spirit live on even after the holidays. good job everyone.

babala... masiyadong mahaba!

2009-12-26T01:22:00.008+08:00

bago ang kung ano pa man, gusto kitang batiin ng maligayang pasko. sana'y nadama mo ang saya ng araw na ito at sana'y hindi mo nakalimutan kung ano ang sinisimbulo nito. ok... back to the hard part. haay... ang hirap talaga pag ang tagal mong nawala sa pagba-blog kasi di mo alam kung saan mo sisimulan ang pagku-kuwento. ang dami nang nangyari sa loob ng halos isang buwan kong pagiging ulirang estudyante at modelong mamayan ng lipunan. at dahil diyan, naisipan kong gumawa na lamang ng listahan para naman organized(sana) at wala akong makalimutang mahalagang kaganapan sa buhay ko. ok, heto na. ladies and gentlemen, mga parekoy, i-off na ang mga cell phones, patayin muna ang tv, maghanda ng merienda, at mag-cr na muna... dahil sa susunod na mga minuto ay inyo nang mababasa ang buhay at adventures ni nightcrawler sa buwan ng disyembre!

1. Acads... heto na ang malupit. sa loob ng mahigit isang buwan na pagbabalik ko sa klase ay mahigit isang buwan din akong walang tulog! haaay... maswerte na ang tatlong oras na pag-pikit na mga mata ko sa isang araw. sh*t na malagkit!(ano daw?) hehe. ang dami kasing mga propesor na galit sa mga buhay nila kaya kami ang napag-buntunan. ang dami kong sinulat na papers, ang daming long quiz sa iba't ibang subjects, may ilang mga exams na tapos na at may ilan namang exams ang salubong sa aming pagbabalik eskwela sa susunod na taon. o di ba? kung hindi ba naman torture ang tawag diyan ay ewan ko na lang. haha. nga pala, hindi ko pa alam iyong grade ko doon sa survey namin... next year ko pa malalaman. salamat ulit sa mga tumugon sa aking survey. i'm so touched(with matching tears pa yan ha.) siguro kung ire-rate ko ang performance ko sa klase sa nakalipas na isang buwan, above average siguro. uy, mataas na yun ha. di pa ako nale-late pero dalawa na ang absent ko. hehe. for those who know me well, alam kong pinapalakpakan niyo na ako dahil nagawa kong hindi ma-late sa mahigit na isang buwan ng klase. achievement yan! haha.

2. Pasiklaban... i was suppose to blog this earlier kaso ang daming kinailangang gawin eh(in short, tinamad! haha.) for those of you who are unfamiliar with pasiklaban, annual event siya sa school na ginaganap bago magbakasyon for christmas. from the name itself, nagpapasiklaban hindi lang mga estudyante kundi pati ang mga profs din. anyway, itong taon yata ang pinaka-boring na event in recent years. nothing exciting, lahat expected na kaya pagkatapos ng oblation run ay madami na rin ang umalis. my friends and i went to a restaurant where they serve the biggest chicken i have ever seen. mukha talaga siyang genetically modified. ganun kalaki. pagkatapos, tumambay na lang kami sa isang bahay at nagpa-kornihan at nagtakutan hanggang madaling araw. fyi, oblation run is the ultimate expression of freedom. and speaking of freedom... here i am at my free-est moment

(first pic) in the middle (second pic) left

3. Organization... i've been a part of this organization for the past two years at masasabi kong napaka-fulfilling ang maging parte nito. it's a regional org catering to the people of pangasinan. what we do is give service(quiz bees, out-reach programs, book drives, clean-up operations, etc...) to our kabaleyans. anyway, two weeks ago, we had a surprise election for the new set of officers. guess who won as the new president? kung kontra-bida ka, malamang na inisip mong hindi ako, pero dahil alam kong bida ka... tama ka, ako nga! and my first official project as the new president is... caroling. o di ba? siyempre may eksplenasyon yan. first, we need funds to supplement our outreach program(dec. 29) and for that one night of caroling alone, naka-kalap kami ng P8000. not bad huh? hindi lang ang outreach program namin ang magbe-benefit ng perang yun kundi pati na rin ang future projects namin. second, i needed an event to be a venue of connecting with the new and younger members of the organization. siyempre, sa dami ba naman ng bahay na kinantahan namin at pagkaing pina-lamon sa amin, nagkaroon na kami ng pagkakataon na magkakilanlan at magkaroon ng koneksyon(at kabag?) haha. needless to say, my first proposed project is a major success. next up, outreach program! ipagdasal niyo kami ha?

4. alam niyo ba na...
a) nasira nanaman ang aking phone? madami sana akong ipo-post na pics kaso nabura lahat. third time this year that it happened kaya pinag-iisipan ko nang bumili ng bagong phone. is samsung any good? sony erikson kaya?
b) anim na christmas party ang aking pinuntahan? kaya heto, bundat na bundat ang nightcrawler. i really need to go on a diet if i want my pants to fit again.
c) natutuwa talaga ako kapag nakakatanggap ako ng unexpected gifts? salamat sa mga nagbigay ng kanilang mga munting regalo. at dun sa nagbigay ng mini planner, don't worry, i'm using it now. salamat :P
d) magpo-post sana ako ng voice recording? kaso nasira nga ang phone ko kaya next time na lang. sayang... maririnig niyo na sana ako kumanta. hehe. next time na lang.
e) i cook a mean pasta alfredo? yup. it was the first food to be out-of-stock during one of the parties i went to. siyempre secret ang aking "magic" ingredient. hehe.
f) hindi talaga ako yung naka-hubad sa picture? haha. got'cha!

sandali na lang

2009-12-18T00:15:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna make this real quick. sorry mga parekoy kung missing in action ako sa blogosperyo. ang dami kasing nangyayari sa school kaya halos wala akong time na gumawa ng matinong post or makipag-kwentuhan ng maayos. mahigit isang buwan na rin akong walang tulog! haayy... ginusto ko 'to, eh di panindigan! anyway... vacation starts this saturday. bear with me some more, a'ayt? talk to you soon :P

ps. para naman makabawi ako sa inyo, magpo-post ako ng pics ng pasiklaban, event yun bukas. familiar with the oblation run? abangan...

panalo ka

2009-12-07T21:50:00.004+08:00

And the winner for best sagot sa tanong ni nightcrawler is... oops, teka muna... bibitinin ko muna kayo. siyempre magi-ispeech muna ako. una sa lahat, gusto kong pasalamatan ang lahat ng nag-bigay ng oras para pagbigyan ang maliit na pabor ni nightcrawler. sabi ko na nga ba at hindi pahuhuli sa katalinuhan ang ating mga blogger friends jan(yihee). at sa sobrang pagka-henyo ninyo ay talagang nahirapan akong pumili ng winner para sa contest na ito. wala naman kasing maling sagot sa aking tanong, dahil ang tinatanong ko ay ang inyong opinyon. sa kadahilanang yan, binase ko ang aking pagdedesisyon(criteria ika nga) sa isang bagay lamang, iyon ay ang kaalaman ninyo sa taong iboboto ninyo. ang tema kasi ng aking research ay tungkol sa awareness ng tao sa mga issues na kailangang pagtuunan ng pansin... mga bagay na dapat ikonsidera sa pagpili ng karapat-dapat na mahalal sa darating na eleksyon.

mula sa 20 respondents, ikaw ang pinaka-tsismoso... este keen observer pala(hehe), ikaw ang panalo, johnonline!

para sa kanyang panalong sagot, i-click mo ito:
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*load will be sent through your e-mail account on or before december 12. kaya siguraduhing valid ang nakalagay na e-mail address sa iyong profile, ok? or if you want it through autoload, let me know.

maging mapanuri at kritikal sa susunod na halalan. tandaan, ang hindi bumoto ay walang karapatang mag-reklamo... be an informed voter and let's make our country live up to its true potential! kayang kaya basta pinoy!

under the mistletoe

2009-12-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

haaay... malapit nanaman ang Christmas. excited nanaman ang lahat.
gusto ko lang pasalamatan lahat ng taong naging bahagi ng buhay ko at walang sawang umagapay sa akin sa nakalipas na taon. sinubukan ako ng Big Boss sa taas at gusto kong isipin na pagkatapos ng lahat ng yun ay lumabas akong mas malakas, mas matalino at mas mapag-halaga sa kung ano ang meron ako ngayon. sa iyo kaibigan, salamat at di mo ako iniwan. you stood by me at my worst, and i hope you stay long enough to witness me at my best. at dahil di naman nila alam ang existence ng aking blog, ite-text ko na lang sa kanila to. hehe. at sa lahat ng parekoy na walang sawang nagbasa ng aking mga posts, may kuwenta man o wala, sa nakalipas na tatlong buwan, taos-puso akong nagpapasalamat sa'yo. sana'y higit pa tayong magkakilala. cheers to a long-lasting friendship.

at para sa mga parekoy nating nasa ibang bansa, wag niyong isiping nakalimutan ko kayo. i have the biggest respect and admiration for the brave, hard-working people like you. at dahil alam kong miss niyo na ang 'pinas, para sa inyo ito...

musikero sundays is proud to present an all-time opm classic, featuring various artists. let us all welcome christmas spirit with sa araw ng pasko.

sa araw ng pasko

'di ba't kay ganda sa atin ng pasko
Naiiba ang pagdiriwang dito
Pasko sa ati'y hahanap-hanapin mo
Walang katulad dito ang pasko

Lagi mo na maiisip na sila'y nandito sana
At sa noche buena ay magkakasama

Ang pasko ay kay saya kung kayo'y kapiling na
Sana pagsapit ng pasko, kayo'y naririto
Kahit pa malayo ka, kahit nasaan ka pa
Maligayang bati para sa inyo sa araw ng pasko

Sa ibang bansa'y 'di mo makikita
Ang ngiti sa labi ng bawat isa
Alam naming hindi n'yo nais malayo
Paskong pinoy pa rin sa ating puso

Lagi mo na maiisip na sila'y nandito sana
At sa noche buena ay magkakasama

Ang pasko ay kay saya kung kayo'y kapiling na
Sana pagsapit ng pasko, kayo'y naririto
Kahit pa malayo ka, kahit nasaan ka pa
Maligayang bati para sa inyo sa araw ng pasko

Dito'y mayro'ng caroling at may simbang gabi
At naglalakihan pa ang christmas tree, ang christmas tree

Ang pasko ay kay saya kung kayo'y kapiling na
Sana pagsapit ng pasko, kayo'y naririto
Kahit pa malayo ka, kahit nasaan ka pa
Maligayang bati para sa inyo...

Ang pasko ay kay saya kung kayo'y kapiling na
Sana pagsapit ng pasko, kayo'y naririto
Kahit pa malayo ka, kahit nasaan ka pa
Maligayang bati para sa inyo sa araw ng pasko

sagutin mo na ako please?

2009-12-02T14:28:00.007+08:00

*Update: deadline of entries will be until tomorrow, december 7, 5 pm. winner/s will be announced at around 9 pm the same day. maraming salamat sa lahat ng respondents...

mga parekoy... hihingi ako ng tulong sa inyo. maliit na pabor lang naman galing sa nightcrawler. kailangan ko kasi para sa project ko, at para mas masaya, gagawin na rin natinpa-contest. i need atleast 10 respondents para sa project ko, 5 male and 5 female respondents. ang tanong...

sino sa mga presidential candidates ang iboboto mo sa darating na halalan?(2010)

a. gilbert teodoro

b. noynoy aquino

c. joseph estrada

d. eddie villanueva

e. bayani fernando

f. manny villar

g. francis escudero

f. other(state name)

at bakit siya ang iboboto mo? kahit maikli lang ang sagot basta may sense... o siya, kahit wala nang sense basta sagutin mo na, ok?

at para mas ganahan kang bumoto, may premyo ang may pinaka-magandang sagot. ang mapipiling sagot ay paparangalan ng P100 load at mafe-feature sa susunod kong post. o ayan ha, wala ka nang dahilan para di sumagot sa survey ko. sikat ka na, may load ka pa. hehe. winner/s will be announced on december 7. salamat mga parekoy... aantayin ko ang inyong mga scholarly insights. naks naman. ayos!

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nga pala, maraming salamat din pala kay pareng scofield jr. para sa napaka-gandang award na ibinahagi niya sa dakilang nightcrawler. the badge is proudly displayed right there :P

"when you wake up in the morning and all you could think of is write, then you are writer! don't let others make you think otherwise." - whoopi goldberg

random acts of rudeness

2009-11-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

i don't know why but for the past week, i've been surrounded with different kinds of rudeness. the more i try to avoid them, the more that they find their way to annoy me even more. in fact, another one occurs as i write this... damn the inconsiderate. shame on the thick-faced. let's not tolerate these random acts of rudeness!

we have the most inconsiderate neighbors, hands down. 2 weeks ago, i couldn't sleep because of all the noise, of all the singing! everytime they would stay up all night with that f*ckin'(excuse the term) videoke, so would we. no, not sing videoke, but stay up later than usual. no matter how much we try, we just couldn't tune-out the noise. now, here they are again, singing their lungs out like they are performing in araneta. i mean i just got home from a week of stress, hoping to get some rest, but rest is impossible to do when neighbors are loud and drunk. is it too hard for them to ask the neighbors if it would be ok for them to do that? ofcourse i would have said no but still, it would be nice to be asked. i asked my mom if we should report them, she said no for the sake of "pakikisama." i tell her, aren't we suppose to expect the same from them?

i have the most opinionated housemate. i know, there's nothing wrong in speaking one's mind but what if one's mind has a mouth dirtier than a mountain of garbage? i mean he only sees the bad in people. he keeps saying how ugly one's friend is or how bad one's writing is, and etc. i have never met someone speak so ill of others, and sometimes it gets to you even if you're not the one involved. one time i heard him say, while watching a movie, "ang pangit naman ng hitsura niyan!" one of our housemates gave the best response, "eh kamukha mo lang yan eh!" haha. he was speechless.

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on a totally different note, definitely not an act of rudeness.. rather, an act of friendship. thank you roanne for the lovely badge. it is proudly displayed right there :P

and thanks to pareng drake for his appreciation for the night crawler on his last post. kahit na madami kaming umangal sa ranking. hehe. oo na, hindi na in order yun. peace :P

school, love, and unfortunate event called haircut

2009-11-20T23:48:00.008+08:00

good evening Philippines and hello to the rest of the world. kumusta naman ang inyong linggo? o, huwag madamot at i-share niyo naman ang mga kaganapan sa inyong makulay na buhay, para fair di ba? hehe. na-miss ko kayo mga parekoy. at dahil marunong akong tumupad sa usapan, heto na ang kuwento ng inyong lingkod na nightcrawler sa nakalipas na linggo.

nightcrawler goes back to school...
ilang araw ko din kayong tiniis para naman mapag-handaan ko ng maigi ang aking pagbabalik-eskwela. so far, so good. hindi pa ako nale-late(major achievement ito kaya shush...), maaga akong naka-kuha ng readings, at highest ako sa first quiz ko for this sem. not bad huh? palakpakan naman diyan. tenk yu, tenk yu! at kabaligtaran ng una kong inakala, things actually went smoothly for me. nagawan ko ng paraan ang pagiging insomniac ko(alas dos na ang pinaka-late na natulog ako this week.. o ha?), nagawan ko ng paraan ang pagiging tamad ko(may himala) at nagawan ko ng paraang ayusin ang buhok ko(more on this later). kung meron mang isang bagay na nahirapang gawin, yun ay ang hindi pag-silip sa mundo ng blogosperyo. believe me, it took a lot of will-power para lang iwasang basahin ang mga blogs niyo kasi alam kong pag nasimulan ko na... aabutin ako ng siyam-siyam. hehe. at dahil uliran na ulit akong estudyante... magbabasa ako ulit pagkatapos kong isulat itong entry ko. ay bukas na pala... magbabasa muna ako ng mga paborito kong blogs. bukas na lang ako magaaral, pramis!

nightcrawler gets mushy...
nagkaroon na ba kayo ng experience na isang tingin mo palang eh alam mo nang siya na ang gusto mo? na hindi ka mahihiyang ipag-mayabang siya sa iba? na kaya mong protektahan, ni ga-bigas na alikabok eh ayaw mong padapuan? na ni tumingin sa iba'y hindi mo na magawa dahil pakiramdam mo'y nagtataksil ka? ang sarap ng feeling di ba? it was love at first sight for me... when i first saw her, i just knew i had to have her... to spend my special days with... and the not so special ones. kahit mas mahal siya ng doble kaysa mga dati ko... i don't mind. she's here to stay. friends... here she is :P

ang ganda niya no? saka na yung totoong lovelife... makakapag-hintay yan. hehe.

nightcrawler gets a haircut...
siyempre pag bagong-buhay, dapat bago din ang gupit. since my long vacation(5 months), di ako nagpa-putol ng buhok kaya mahaba-haba rin.. sabi ng marami ay hindi raw bagay sa akin ang mahabang buhok, and i agree. mukha daw akong taong grasa. haha. ibinagay ko lang naman ang buhok ko sa aking state of mind and since lumiwanag na ulit ang buhay ko... i just had to have my hair cut. laking pagsisisi ko lang dahil sa mga kaibigan kong mahilig mang-trip nagpagupit. hay. ginawa ba naman akong loughing stock ng araw na yun. kaya pala ang mga ugok ay panay ang ngisi, akala ko naman dahil maganda ang gupit, yun pala ay dahil pigil ang pagtawa. siyempre, di ko naman matitiis na magpakita ng matagal sa tao na ang buhok eh parang imbes na shampo ang pinang-hugas eh clorox pala. hehe. dahil jan, pumunta ako kay manong barbero at voila! new look :P

tenk u kay manong gupit for a job well done. para kang magician!
at since ilang araw din akong deprived sa mga blogs ninyo... mag-iikot muna ako ha? ready... GO!

little time for quickie

2009-11-17T14:58:00.005+08:00

another quick post from the nightcrawler.

naka-singit lang ng oras mula sa aking busy schedule para naman kamustahin kayo mga parekoy. the nightcrawler is no longer bored... rather, tired! haha. balik eskwela ang inyong lingkod kaya wala pa ako sa tamang ulirat para maka-pagpost ng matinong entry. bibigyan ko muna kayo ng preview ng susunod kong "nobela."

1. night crawler goes back to school!

2. night crawler is in-love!(pinag-iisipan ko pa kung magpo-post ako ng pic. hehe)

3. night crawler gets a haircut! (oh man! definitely no pics for this.)

see you on friday mga parekoy... miss ko na magbasa ng mga blogs niyo.

blOOdy finger

2009-11-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

magiging busy na ulit ang dakilang night crawler. noon excited ako pero habang palapit na ang araw na iyon ay unti-unti akong kinakabahan. kinakabahan dahil ilang buwan din akong namahinga... paano kung di na sanay ang katawan ko sa mabigat na ekspektasyon ng unibersidad? paano kung di ko pa pala kayang harapin ang iniwan kong nakaraan? haay... tama nga siguro ang sabi nila... "what we fear most is fear itself." i guess the right thing to do is to not care at all. 'cause if i don't give a f*ck about it, why should they, right? kung si katrina halili nga, naka-hanap pa ng lakas-ng-loob para humarap sa kamera matapos ang scandal niya, ako pa kaya?(wag muna mag-isip ng berde. wala akong sex scandal... wala pa. hehe.)

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ilang beses niyo na sigurong narinig ang linyang "dugo't pawis ang nilabas ko makuha lang iyan." ako, talagang literal na dugo't pawis ang nilabas ko nitong enrolment. unang lumabas sa akin ay ang dugo. habang ako'y nasa canteen, akalain mo ba namang nasagi pa ng kamay ko ang salamin ng lamesa. ayun, parang gripo ng dugo ang daliri ko. sabi nga nung nurse sa clinic, konting laki pa ng sugat ko, tatahiin na. haay... salamat sa Diyos at di na umabot dun. at dahil masipag(?) ang dakilang nightcrawler... itinuloy pa rin ang enrolment kahit sugatan. hay. siguro ay isang baldeng pawis ang nawala sa akin dahil sa pagpapahirap ng mga propesor! aren't teachers suppose to help their students succeed? bakit parang mas masaya silang nahihirapan kami? haayyy. lalo na iyong isang propesor ko. akalain mo ba namang muntik na akong di maka-enrol dahil ayaw niyang pirmahan ang tp form ko at iyong subject lang niya ang kailangan ko para kumpleto na ang units ko!?! buti na lang at nakahanap ako ng iba at dahil mabait akong nilalang.. di ako bitter kay ma'am. oo nga pala ma'am... palagi kayong magdala ng payong baka kasi ulanin kayo ng ihi ng aso. saka, parati kayong magdala ng first-aid kit kasi baka madapa kayo sa hallway. at wag kayong kakain ng pagkaing di niyo alam kung sino ang nagpadala, baka magka-diarrhea kayo. buti na lang di ako bitter at pina-alalahanan ko kayo.

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cool fact about friday the 13th : there's actually less violence, lower crime rates and fewer accidents during this day. why? 'cause people are more careful during friday the 13th because of all the myths surrounding it. makes you want to wish for more friday the 13th huh?

taksil, BOW!

2009-11-08T23:35:00.002+08:00

tanong lang...
bakit pag ang lalake ang nangaliwa, ok lang na ipahiya siya ng mahal niya at ang tawag dun ay justice?
pero pag ang lalake naman ang ginoyo at subukang gumanti, ang tawag dun ay inconsiderate at ungentlemanly?
talk about double standard right? am i right guys or are you wrong? haha

*you ever wonder why so many couples break up? maybe because sorry is the hardest thing to say and the word that everyone dreads to hear...
or maybe because when you really are sorry, the right words to say are,"i won't do it again." and if you love the person enough... you'll believe it.

musikero sundays is proud to present another pinoy talent, a big hit waiting to happen. i'm sure he wants our applause for this: give it up for gabe bondoc.

Take a Bow(response) Lyrics

Don’t want a round of applause
Don’t want that standing ovation
I look so dumb right now
Standing outside your house
I’m trying to apologize
I’m sorry I made u cry please won't you come out
I say that I’m sorry you say not
Babe cause you think I’m only sorry I got caught
But I put on quite a show
Thought I had you going
Now you're trying to go
The curtain can’t be closing
This is not a show
Not at all I’m not playing
Can’t be over now
Don’t wanna take my bow
All my clothes on this lawn
And you turned the sprinklers on
Girl I love you you’re the one I mess 'em up all at once
Please don’t throw me out
I say that I’m sorry you say not
Babe cause you think I’m only sorry I got caught
But I put on quite a show
Thought I had you going
Now is time to go
Curtains finally closing
This is not a show
Babe I’m not playing
This cant be over now
Don’t wanna take my bow
Was there a reward for just telling the truth
Babe wont you believe that a man like me could be faithful to you
Lets keep this speech out
How bout a round of applause
Don’t want that round of applause
And I put on quite a show
I though that I had you going
Now your trying to go
But the curtain cant be closing
This is not a show
Babe I’m not playing
It can’t be over now
Don’t wanna take my bow

mahabang kwento

2009-11-05T19:05:00.000+08:00

as promised, heto na ang aking mahabang kwento(nobela daw ayon sa isang mokong jan. haha)

chapter 1 : Undas 2009

heto nanaman. i am not really fond of this day cause for some odd reason, i always end up being sick after visiting our deceased love ones. and this year is no different, i am still sick as i write this. haay. but you know what really pisses me off? it's the fact that people seem to have forgotten what this day is suppose to mean and who it is for. mabibilang mo na lang sa kamay mo kung ilan na lang ang nagdadasal para sa mga namayapa na. ganun pa man, there are still a lot to be admired sa ating mga kabayan at isa na jan ang pagiging maka-pamilya natin. who else could turn a supposedly gloomy afternoon into a family reunion? i swear, kahit saan ako tumingin nun, mapagkakamalang picnic ang meron! haha. anyway, napag-usapan na rin lang ang picnic sa undas, i just made my very first contribution. gumawa ako ng pinaka-masarap na deremen(kung alam mo kung ano ito, malamang sa isang probinsya tayo. hehe)

chapter 2 : Panaginip

Matapos ang undas, inimbita ako ng mga pinsan ko to spend the night over sa bahay nila. we rented movies, we stayed up all night playing computer games, and the next day we went to the beach to have some fun. bago kami matulog ng gabing yun, we were talking about our cousin who passed away last year. we were really tight, practically brothers. at ng gabi ding yun, dinalaw niya ako sa panaginip. sa pelikula, kapag dinadalaw ang isang tao sa panaginip, nagbibigay ito ng magandang mensahe o kaya'y naghahabilin ng mga bagay-bagay. hanep din ang pinsan kong to. dumalaw na nga sa panaginip ko, inututan pa ako. iba kasi ang bonding naming magpipinsan. kung ang iba ay naglalaro ng taguan, kami naman ay naglalaro ng ututan at parati kong partner ang pinsan kong yun. paggising ko, i realized maybe he was giving me a message na bisitahin ko ang puntod niya. di kasi ako nakasama nung bumisita ang iba kung pinsan sa kaniya... that day, after our stroll to the beach, we went to see him and i prayed for him. i told him that i never forgot him at ipag-reserba niya ako ng pwesto sa langit(mahirap na, hehe) i miss you brother... there is not a day na hindi ko hiniling sa Diyos na sana ay kasama ka pa rin namin dito...

chapter 3 : the Beach

isa sa mga weird na bagay sa akin ay ang hindi ko pagka-gusto sa beach o swimming pool. parati ko kasing naiisip ang nangyari sa akin nung bata ako. ilang beses na akong muntik malunod at nasaksihan ko rin ang karumal-dumal na pag-ihi ng isang matandang lalaki sa swimming pool(binbangunot pa rin ako minsan) kaya hindi ko nakahiligan ang paglangoy. sa kabila nito, hindi ko pa rin mapa-hindian ang mga nagiimbita sa akin sa beach. bakit? kahit kasi hindi ko gustong magswimming, when you love the people you're with... makakalimutan mo na ang mga bagay na di mo gusto. kaya nung araw na yun, hindi ang maduming tubig ang naalala ko kundi ang pabilisan namin sa paglangoy, hindi ang mainit na buhangin kundi ang mga bakas na aming iniwan, at hindi ang init ng araw kundi ang warmth na bigay ng mga tao sa paligid mo.

meron pa sana akong ikukwento kaso alam kong di kayo masipag mag-basa ng mahabang kwento kaya next time na lang yun, a'ayt? enjoy the rest of your vacation mga parekoy and i can't wait to be busy again(can't believe i just said that! haha)

quick post

2009-11-04T14:27:00.004+08:00

kumusta ang undas mga parekoy? marami akong ikukwento sa inyo pero di muna ngayon ha? may pupuntahan pa kasi ako ngayon at gagawin ko pa iyong paper kong ilang linggo nang late. haha. patikim lang ng mga ikukwento ko sa inyo:

1. siyempre ang Undas 2009
2. ang dumalaw sa panaginip ko
3. ang pagpunta ko sa beach
4. at iyong lakad na rin namin mamaya.

o ha? ang lakas niyo talaga sa akin. nagparamdam lang sa inyo mga parekoy. talk to you soon , ' )

the hunger artist connection

2009-10-31T02:05:00.002+08:00

alam niyo ba ang kwento ng hunger artist? kung hindi pa, makinig ka. at kung alamo mo naman... kunwari na lang hindi mo pa alam... pramis! mas magaling ako magkwento. hehe.

may isang artist ang naging pamoso dahil sa kakaibang atake nito sa larangan ng sining. isa siya sa pinaka-sikat na alagad ng arts at bawat obra niya ay talagang ikinaka-mangha ng bawat mapa-titig dito. minsan, naisip niya ang isang bagay na hindi lamang ikinamangha ng tao kundi talaga namang pinag-usapan ng buong madla. ng dahil sa kaartehan ng artist, sinabi nitong hindi siya kakain hanggang hindi ihain sa kanya ang pinaka masarap na pagkain sa mundo. at dahil nga siya ay isang artist, pinaki-usapan niya ang isang namamahala sa isang circus upang ilagay siya sa isang kulungan upang mapanuod ng mga tao ang kanyang art(ito marahil ang tinatawag nilang performance art.. although performance is a bit of a stretch kasi wala naman siyang ibang ginawa sa kulungan kundi ang maghintay.) siyempre, na-curius ang mga tao at pinilahan ang nasabing art. bawat araw ay naghain ang mga tao ng iba't-ibang putahe ngunit ni tikim ay hindi ginawa ng artist... lumipas ang mga araw at unti-unting napagod ang mga tao at tuluyan ng nakalimutan ang artist. matapos ang isang buwan... habang pinapasok ang isang bagong hayop sa kulungan upang maging bagong kagigiliwan ng mga tao, natagpuan ang artist... patay sa gutom at limot ng madla.

bakit nga ba ako nag-aksaya ng oras para-ibahagi sa iyo ang kuwentong ito? siguro dahil sa tingin ko ay katulad ako ng hunger artist. masiyadong bilib sa sarili, na pwedeng paghintayin ang mundo basta't sabihin ko lang. sa mga naka-lipas na panahon, naghintay lang ako para sa pinaka-masarap na putahe ngunit ako'y nabigo. then i realized what i was doing wrong... i never took a bite. bakit ba hindi nahanap ng artist ang pinaka-masarap na putahe sa mundo? dahil hindi niya tinikman ang mga nakahaing putahe. how will someone know the taste of the most delicious food when he have not tasted the worst? well, since then, i have had my fair share of disgustingly unedible foods and yesterday... i just had my bite of the best.

moral of the story... don't be afraid to bite. ikaw? kailan ka huling tumikim?(lahat ng berde ang isip ngumiti! hahaha)

tulang kay pait

2009-10-27T00:17:00.006+08:00

kumusta mga parekoy? inyo sanang pagpasensyahan ang ilang araw kong pagkawala sa mundo ng pagbablog. naging busy kasi ang inyong lingkod sa mga sumusunod na mga bagay:
1. pagsasa-ayos ng mga bagay sa bahay(epekto ni pepeng)
2. paggawa ng assignment(late rin lang naman ang bagsak. haay)
3. pagbabasa na mga libro: for one more day ni mitch albom. ang paboritong libro ni hudas at alamat ng gubat ni bob ong. maynila sa kuko ng liwanag(not suitable for kids po ito mga ineng) ni lualhati bautista
4. pagrereflek sa gusto kong mangyari sa aking buhay(ka-dramahan ko lang po ito sa buhay)

at dahil mejo natuhan na ako sa aking pagmumuni-muni at dilat nanaman ang mga matang dapat ay pikit na, gusto kong bumawi sa inyo. meron akong gustong ibahagi sa inyong isang tula na aking isinulat ilang taon na ang nakakaraan. kung hindi ako nagkakamali, sa isang klase ko ito sinulat habang naglelektyur ang propesor namin noon. ugali ko na kasi noon pa man na isulat ang aking mga saluobin upang pagtawanan pagkalipas na panahon. ngunit iba ito. simula ng muli ko itong masilayan noong isang linggo, muling nagbalik ang isang bangungot na ayoko na ulit mangyari sa akin... natuto na ako. ayoko na. ito po ang aking tulang pinamagatang...

"In and Out"

gustuhin ko man ay hindi ko magawa
hanggang saan ba ako tatakbo?
hanggang kailan magtitiis?
upang sa isipa'y tuluyang maalis

ayaw ko na, pagod na ako
sawa na ako sa iyong bangungot
kailan ba matatapos ang pagpapahirap mo?
hindi mo ba ramdam ang aking takot?

malapit na, hindi ko na kaya
panalo ka na, heto na ako
dahan-dahang kakatok, isa, dalawa, tatlo
ngunit sa aking pag-pasok, ika'y biglang naglaho

hindi kita maintindihan!
iniwan ko ang lahat para sa'yo
sa susunod, hindi na ako palilinlang sa'yo!
ang hirap kaya maghanap ng banyo!

*kaya ngayon... di ako umaalis ng bahay na hindi nakikipag-meeting kay doro. mahirap na ang magka-ruon ng emergency call. nyahaha.

laughter and music

2009-10-18T22:35:00.003+08:00

tawa tayo. isa pa... sige pa... last na... o, tama na! OA na eh.
hindi ba masayang tumawa? samahan mo pa ng musika, kumpleto rekado na.
kaya para sa linggong ito, bibigyan ko kayo ng masarap na putahe.
sana'y mabusog ko kayo sa tawa at sa musika.

musikero sundays is proud to present the music of MAYONNAISE(pa'no nangyari yon?)
*paalala, mas nakakatawa ito pag alam niyo ang mga music videos na ini-ispoof nila kaya wag na violent reaction, ok? tawa na lang ulit! mwahaha.

ps. the kitchie nadal spoof in the end is priceless :P

pepeng experience

2009-10-14T00:09:00.005+08:00

there will always be that one occurrence that will forever change one's perspective in life. i should know... i just had mine last week. the pepeng experience(i would have called it by another name so you would have to blame it on PAG-ASA)

i have always hated typhoons. i hate it when it rains so hard that it makes me remember my tears will never fill a river. i hate it when the wind gets extra strong that it makes me forget that we live in a home with concrete walls. i hate it when it gets so chilly that it reminds me of the fact that the right side of my bed is vacant. and i hate it most especially when the electricity suddenly goes out when all i want to do is blog, catch my favorite show on tv, and make some hot choco(fine, this i can do even without electricity). yup... i am a city boy and i can be that shallow.

friday. strong winds and heavy rains have finally taken its toll. for the first time in our more than fourteen years of residence in our subdivision, flood reached our home.we were quick to move as we have heard of frightening stories about flood rising in a blink of an eye(i could be exaggerating. but still, at a fast rate). by noon, first floor was flooded, electricity was gone and we were stuck upstairs with minimum food and the rest of our drinking water. it was horrible. i was restless. there was nothing to do. i started reading but then night came so that was a bust. it's official, pepeng s*cks!

saturday. it was more frustrating for me that day 'cause it was my birthday. yup, you guessed it. no fancy dinner, no expensive gifts, no big time blowout. instead, we shared noodles and packed some clothes to give to those who have suffered much more than we have. we are doing something noble and yet all i can think of was how unfair it is for me to see my family getting all busy to prepare for other people when they don't even have a second to give me a quick peck on the cheek and... hey, don't give me that look. i'm all up for charity but it's my birthday. i'm allowed to be a little unreasonable right?

sunday. i've reached my tipping point. all clothes were packed, all books have been read, all food have been eaten, i can't go out and my phone's out of order. i'm miserable. and i smell... not the kind of smell that we call "man stink" that we use to disgust our sisters with, but the kind that would send off even the smelliest dog. i was going nuts so i decided i to stay in bed... trying to avoid doing nasty things(*wink*) and i tried to sleep off all of my frustrations. then i woke up. surprise, surprise!

monday. i woke up with a smile on my face. i can't believe that the sight of light from that energy-saving lightbulb could give me so much joy. i got up and did the first thing i thought of, i took a dump. a big massive dump. finally, i got my life back. all is fair again. i switched the tv on, only to be surprised with how "fair" lost its meaning.

fair would have been people having enough food to eat while waiting to be rescued. fair would have been having enough boats to save more people and reduce casualties. fair would have been having more people concerned for the victims than their political gains. fair would have been... then i realized, that's just it. it's always "would have been," it was never "is." i feel like fair never even existed and i have never felt so useless and dumb.

i thought of my pepeng experience and i realized i was looking at it the wrong way. i frowned at the fact that my phone was dead when i should be thankful of the personal talks i had with my family. i was sad that i wasn't able to watch my shows when i should be happy that i finally finished reading my books. i was ungreatful of those noodles for my birthday when i should be glad i had something to eat with my family. i was pissed with my temporarily disturbed life when i should celebrate the fact that i am alive. now i've realized, positive things are seen by people who seek to see the good even in the bad.

i don't want to expound on my new found out-look in life because i don't want to be one of those people who i used to hate. i don't want to turn into one of those know-it-all authors who writes self-help books. i'm not oprah! got to stop this now before i turn into dr. phil. thank God electricity's back!

hindi na ako virgin

2009-10-04T17:24:00.004+08:00

that's right! you heard me. di na ako virgin!
i just had my very first... DOWNLOAD!(green kasi ng utak eh) haha
ngayon lang ako natutong mag-download ng video, pathetic huh?
anyway, for my debut download, here's one of my favorite songs
covered by a youtube sensation.

ladies and gentlemen, musikero sundays proudly presents:
The man who can't be moved by airto